Theres the man you chose, the man who'll likely have to fetch you after work, who'll pay the insist to pay the bill on a date, who'll give you flowers and chocolates and everything cutie things you sure do love to woo you or he'll just treat you and bring you out of town to watch the most beautiful place to watch the sunrise, who'll treat you like the only girl in the world and losing you means the end of it.

 Theres that guy who'll grin at you and laugh at you when you make a fun out yourself and still assure you that he love you still, who'll appreciate everything you do, who'll try to make you smile each day there is and who'll go crazy when you're hurt for he hurts triple.

Theres that man, who'll comfort you, and explain every problem and let you see things on the different side patiently, who'll have to endure you every month of complete crazyness of changing, budging gormones. who'll stand by you still even if you dont wear or feel the most exquisitely gorgeous lady in the crowd.

The guy who'll stay and that is that guy, maybe not the knight. but he is that man, maybe all of us dreamed of having and still its existence is questioned in this generation.

 

If there truly is that kind, i know there it is but so hard to find. In a world where beauty and physique is the basis of judgement and without it one is not taken seriously, i hope it is not. That there are still people who will find time to get to know somebody just because he/she makes you smile and because of understanding and spark is there. A knight that is different from the other. and i hope there is still. And its ok even if he doesnt ride horses and wears armors. (lol)

(when praying about something like love that has been lost. what would a girls prayer be?)

We thought it was him, we thought it would be him. We thought it will be forever. And yet, we thought wrong.

I never imagined that there is something wrong between us, and never realized there is until that night. It was not that game anymore, when i use to tell him il leave him, that he'll just hug me oh so tight and whisper that there will never come a day that he would let me think of leaving him. It wasnt one of those nights i guess. for that night, he never even said a word, he just left me there on whats suppose to be our room- staring and thinking if i still know this guy in front of  me. to whom i have chosen to love, to whom ive chosen to believe more and less to my friends; to the man whom i chose to be with instead spending that Christmas night with my family. I never known this kind of man in front me now, who seems so cold. I pray, Lord God to send me back my man. Who constantly loves me, whose there to support me, whose very presence makes me happy. Where is he? Who is that man Oh Lord, coz i do not know him. I pray that he will come back and change his mind into leaving me, i pray that he will choose me instead of that girl i saw... that pretty girl he used to work with. Its my fault, i should have known whats coming and i should have done something.I can give him more than what he needed just give me this chance oh Lord. Help me.


.. but then

they just broke up . He finds another
and the girl is just there, watching, envying It should have been her holding that hand. For weeks, the girl learned to live her life though there is still wanting in her eyes, hope that one day he will be back believing that that time will come soon. So she got herself busy and yes, she have been so busy that she has already forgotten about him. Forgotten about her heart broken.

And then she prayed again. . .

Thank you, Ive passed it all. Ive learned to forgive him but sorry its so hard to forget. Im ok now, so you dont have to give me a truck full of work (smiles), it really helps me divert my attention (sighs). But you know what, i still know im gonna love again  i can feel it. And if i do find that love, hmmm better be ready for me for those nights that i will CALL YOU and ASK YOU silly questions of why and why and where. I bet you know what im saying. (laughs) So don't get tired on me ok? And again, can i ask you for that next time. If you'll gonna give me some love i hope he will be that someone who will stay???