I need help before I completely destroy what is left between my ex and I. I have been with him for 4 months, you would think by now that I would trust him a bit, right? Well for some reason I don't. Sadly, this is the longest relationship I've ever had. I feel such strong feelings for him. I am unsure if it's love, but I do like him a lot.
I will start from the beginning.
We met online on a dating site. I wasn't going to message him because he has this sports car, and I was thinking he was in it just for sex, as most guys are on the Internet. But instantly after we met, we clicked and had a great time. We stayed up until 8 in the morning! He kissed me that night too, and for the first time ever, I instantly felt feelings for someone. This could be one reason why I don't trust him. I found a lot of married and spoken for guys on there. I do not fear that he is on the website, I fear when he goes out drinking, that he will cheat on me
After a week of hanging out, he asked me out while we were camping with his friends (not in front of anyone). Then he introduced me to all his other friends once we got back, and his parents. After 2-3 weeks, I was at his house every night and have been until today. I pretty much lived there; all my stuff was there. Slept there every day, cooked, cleaned, helped out with the groceries.
However, I never trusted him, and I don't know why. I have assumptions, like us moving too fast, not getting in the relationship but pretty much moving in too early. I should have been staying a few nights a week, and just seeing him during the week.
This morning I decided that we needed space, but he doesn't want to be with me. He said I hurt him too much so he doesn't think we are together anymore, "but that doesn't mean we can't get back together." I thought maybe I could slow the relationship down so we can finally build the trust we don't have for each other. He trusts me more than i trust him obviously.
I honestly don't know what to do to get him back, and I don't know how to build trust with him.