Saturday, 08 December 2012
My friend from work has just sparked a new budding romance with a mutual acquaintance. I have to admit, I’m a little jealous of the way she lights up at the thought of him and how giddy their flirtations make her. I miss those feelings of a new, fresh beginning with so much potential. The friend from work told me her new special someone happened to wonder why I hadn’t asked for his number. Of course she responded with the news that I’m already in a committed relationship. Is it wrong of me to wish he didn’t know?
I get the feeling this certain guy was interested in me to some extent, or else he never would have made an inquiry about why I hadn’t made any advances. It’s flattering to think he finds me attractive, but now that he knows I am unattainable, is that allure destroyed? Even though I’ve already found the one man I want to spend my life with, it feels good to still know I can turn heads and catch a man’s attention. I don’t want that flattery to dissipate because of a ring around my finger, but at the same time I don’t want to come across as flirtatious either.
This all made me wonder, am I ready to get married? Am I ready to kiss goodbye the butterflies of exciting first encounters? Can I let go of my desire to be wanted by other guys? When it comes down to it, I think so. I realize that even though I miss the thrills of dating, I wouldn’t trade my fiancé for anything. He is my home, my comfort, my protection, my safe haven, and my security. While I’m jealous of my friend’s infatuation, she is jealous of my stability. She envies the love I have found that I can put faith in, instead of always hanging on every word.
What do you think? Is it normal to want flirtatious attention from other men right before getting married? To what extent?