My boyfriend and I have been together about a year and a half. I love him even though he drives me crazy, and he loves me. He's older by a few years (I'm going to be 18 in 2 months). Anyway, I'm preparing for college and I'll most likely start in August. Even though it's months away I'm dreading the idea of my boyfriend and I breaking up. I feel like everywhere I've read it's almost a rule that you have to break up with your boyfriend when you start college.
I'm going to college in-state and the school is 20-30 minutes away from both him and my family (not the reason I want to go there, it's a really good school) so it's obviously not long-distance. He's older and has already graduated college, so it's not the typical situation of going to different schools and hoping he doesn't cheat or anything like that.
I'm really excited for college and all the experiences, learning new things and more freedom. I'm looking forward to everything (even the annoying roommates) but despite knowing I'll have this new life I still want my boyfriend included in that. I'm not the most romantic person in the world so I don't expect we'll be together forever, but is it so wrong to go into college and see if we can make it? Do you think just trying out the relationship and seeing if it can handle the changes would be worse than just breaking it off beforehand?
I've tried talking to him about it but he doesn't seem to want to talk about it. He always says, "We have months till you go, don't worry about it now," which is true but I'm such a worrier that I worry about everything - even things that won't happen to me for months or even years! I just love him a lot and I feel like he really gets me (I also lost my v-card to him so that might be the reason for some of the emotional attachment).
He's one of my best friends, too. (I've been home schooled since 10th grade, so I don't have too many friends besides my two best girlfriends and I'm really close with my family.) I know he loves me too, but I'm really conflicted on what to do.
Should I just try it out or go to college with a fresh start?