I'm in my second relationship, and I am actually only 23. I've never been a very social person, so it's been a very different thing for me. My current boyfriend is a really nice guy. Sometimes, I even think that he's a little too nice that it gets annoying. But I think, "At least he's not a douche, right?" However, I can't think of him as anything more than a friend anymore.
The thing is, we went out in June for almost two months, and then I broke up with him because I wasn't attracted to him anymore. But then, only a month ago, I asked to get back together. But I think I did it only because I was lonely.
And now, I totally regret getting back together with him. When we kiss, I just want to leave the room. It is that bad! Unfortunately, my parents and my older sister, who is very close to me, really like him and think that he's the greatest. I have no idea what to do. I'm afraid that he already loves me, and I hardly like him.
And to put more into that, I can't stop thinking about my ex-boyfriend, who was my first boyfriend. I could kiss him and I felt like I was on Cloud 9. Unfortunately, he lives 2 1/2 hours away from me, so I can't even tell him anything. I broke up with him because he wanted to get more physical, and I didn't. But now, I miss him. I have talked to him a few times, and I'm almost positive that he still has feelings for me. My life is not looking good at all.
Does anyone have any suggestion for me?