Monday, 15 October 2012
My boyfriend, who I have been with for a little over a year and have a daughter with, is amazing. He loves me to death, doesn't tell me to work, is an amazing dad, and works his ass off to take care of me and our daughter. I am lucky to have him in my life and any girl would be lucky to have him as well.
I cheated on him. Twice when we first started dating with my ex-fiance, and then again the other day with the same person. I did own up to it and tell my boyfriend willingly, but his reaction was just... confusing.
He isn't even mad at me, not one bit. I don't know how to take that. My only problem with him is that he is TOO nice. He never stands up for himself. I am thankful he isn't mad, but I kind of want him to be. I want him to yell at me and tell me what I did was wrong, but he won't.
At this moment in time, I'm not even sure if I want to be with him. I have personal issues of my own that I have been trying to deal with and for some reason, he hasn't been making it any better. I had been planning on staying with a friend so I could sort everything out for myself, but he is begging me to come back.
What the hell is wrong with me and how do I handle this situation?