This post was submitted by Kelly.
Over the summer, I met a really great guy while doing a project overseas. I am an undergraduate student and he is currently in his second year of medical school. It wasn't a love at first sight thing, but the more time we spent together, the more he grew on me. After being in too many unhealthy relationships, there was something just so natural with him.
He's kind with his actions, he's responsible, smart, and most importantly, he makes me laugh, all the time. There is nothing dishonest about him, I feel like I can completely be myself, and he would respect me. But because he is such a straight edge and honest guy, it's hard to read his true emotions. He takes care of everyone, and so when he is especially caring with me, I get mixed signals.
Long story short, after the summer, I got back into school and with my also busy schedule, we rarely spoke. He is extremely busy with medical school, but whenever I needed him or needed to talk to him, he was willing to drop everything to do so. Recently, he had a long weekend and decided to drive about five hours to visit me at school.
It was an amazing weekend. He cooked for me, took me out to eat, and we had so much fun together. He is so respectful too, and although he spent nights with me, we kept our boundaries. Never have I ever been so comfortable with anyone. And never have I wanted so badly to open up my heart to someone. He's different. With other guys, I doubt and question their motives, and I have not been in a long-term relationship for a long time.
When he first came, I took this visit as a friendly one--just one friend visiting the other. But I swear, with all the female intuition in me, that there is something more. And when I sat by the river that night with him, I swear, he felt the same way about me.
The thing is, neither of us acts on it. I know my feelings, but I do know the circumstance. We would be in a LDR...and he's in medical school. I know he knows it too, even though I still can't confirm if he sees me more than a friend. But he keeps saying that medical school is so hard, and he doesn't have time for anything. And to clarify I really don't see this as him keeping me hanging or lying, he's very honest. I know he means it when he says he's busy.
I think I'm writing this post... because I just feel helpless. I also am aiming for medical school, and I know what sacrifices are to be made in terms of relationships. He's such a great guy, and I wonder, were it not for medical school, if he would try. And why circumstances make things so difficult. He has left now, and we only exchange one or two texts a day... and I just miss him. I really just miss him.
I know if I don't act on my feelings, I could be losing out on a really great guy. But then again, my intuition could backfire, and he doesn't feel the same way at all.
Is medical school that bad, that a relationship can't ensue?