Sunday, 23 September 2012
This post was submitted anonymously.
I never had the typical college experience. I was snatched up by a great guy my freshman year and we ended up dating for a year and a half. Since then, dating hasn't come easy. I've been on some unbelievable first dates; one guy texted the entire time. With my lack of excitement, I found myself giving up.
Then, I started thinking about my best friend. Let's refer to him as Jack. He's a guy I also met when I started college. We used to constantly joke about how we couldn't STAND to date one another, it wasn't even an option. Back then it was absolutely true! As we've grown closer and time has passed, he has been a loyal and helpful companion to me. He even got me my latest job.
He's everything I could ever want and it didn't really hit me until recently. No, this isn't out of desperation! I am fine with being alone and if he shot me down it wouldn't affect me. But I'm not sure if it would bother him.
Lately, I've made some life changes to be happier and I've included him in almost all of them. Just today, he was saying how much more relaxed and fun I am. Recently we started heavily flirting, mostly with a few drinks. But today we were watching some bogus reality show and he was lying on one end of my couch with his legs on me, while I was on the other end, with my legs on him.
I asked him if he wanted to just spoon so he could see better. He didn't hesitate and he had that one "pillow" arm out for my head to rest on. Yes, we've snuggled twice. And for once we are both single. For once, I'm seeing how amazing he is and he's seeing a new side of me. I think we've changed a lot in the past 2-3 years.
But I find myself questioning if it's worth it. Should I wait and hope he makes a move? What if he thinks it's just casual? What if he feels so awkward it ruins our friendship and puts an end to our joking flirtations? If I don't do anything will I regret it when he finds a new girl? Help me Datingish community!
I can't lose his friendship, he means the world to me. But I just wish he'd stop stroking my hair and snuggling with me and start doing more!
I'll accept any advice!