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I have been with my guy for a little over 2 years. I guess we're what you would call, "college sweethearts" but I'm starting to feel like this box of chocolate called our relationship is soon to expire.
I really love my boyfriend with all my heart, but I'm the type of person who believes that realistically you can't be IN LOVE with someone all day every day. However, as long as love is there, you can just wait to fall in love with them again and again. My boyfriend doesn't quite feel the same way. He is constantly questioning what love feels like and thus we don't actually say, "I love you" to each other because he's afraid he'd be lying.
Do I think that means he doesn't love me? No. I think he's just one of those guys that isn't capable of expressing his emotions well, but he's improving.
Anyway, my boyfriend is a senior this year and is of course planning out the rest of his life. Lately I find myself incredibly frightened that he'll decide that I'm not part of the plan. After 6 months of either living in different states or different countries, we are finally in the same city again. It's not unexpected that we would have a hard time getting back into the swing of being in a more normal relationship, but we're keeping it going.
However, a week after he got back (about a month ago) he did break it off with me. Granted, this break up lasted for less than 24-hours, but it really scared me and broke my heart a bit. In the end his reasons can all be chalked up to our failure to communicate properly and his uncertainty about his entire future.
We resolved to talk about everything more openly from now on and he agreed that even though the future is scary, he has no problems with the relationship and wants to stay with me. He said that he is also afraid that since he almost broke up with me, I'll be afraid that it could happen again at any moment...and he's right. Especially with him graduating at the end of the year, I'm afraid I may just be written off as a part of this chapter of his life.
I am realistic and know that neither of us can predict the future and that things will either work out or they won't, but of course at this point in time I don't want to lose him. Such is life.
Have any of you guys ever been in this situation? Am I right to be worried or am I likely working myself up over nothing?