This post was submitted anonymously.
When I was in high school, I dated a boy for 3 years. After we broke up, we continued to have sex. One day, he had a cut on his lip and he was always known to bite his lip
. He reassured me it was just a cut and went down on me
. The day after the next, I broke out in sores. The free clinic here informed me that they could only test for herpes simplex 2, "Because herpes simplex 1 isn't a big enough deal."
I tested negative for HSV-2. The virus that usually causes oral cold sores, HSV-1, had been contracted to my lower region
I fell into a deep depression about this. That was 4 years ago and I've never had a break out since. I still have an intense fear to get into a relationship because I'd have to tell the person I have genital herpes.
The words I hysterically cried out to my best friend when I first contracted this virus still haunt me; "Who's going to want to be with someone who has genital herpes? I don't want to be with someone with genital herpes."
People will say, if the person really cares about you, they will learn to deal with it. But honestly, how can someone enjoy sex with me, knowing there is a chance they could contract the virus? I don't even think I could enjoy sex with someone because I'd be worried about contracting it!
Have you been in a similar situation?