Wednesday, 08 August 2012
In my past two relationships, I've been completely screwed over. My ex-husband seemed to find his happiness in my (ex) best friend's arms, and the guy I was engaged to seemed to look for a way out after the announcement that, "surprise!" I was pregnant! So after the lovely departure of these d-bags, I have found myself scared to let anyone in.
Sometimes I still think about what the hell I did wrong to deserve it all, and then there are some days I just don't care anymore. I'm a single mother of two beautiful boys and work my ass off every day to make sure that where I go in life supports them. During that, I have an opportunity to meet someone new, go out on a date, see where it leads... but I can't seem to stop thinking about it all, and think, "I'm not about to fall for the bs again."
I'm cold, numb, and bitter to the male population, and I can't seem to come out of this funk to try and meet some great guy who I could spend the rest of my life with, and help me raise two great little boys.
Is this just me, or is there anyone else out there who has experienced/is experiencing this cold, bitter way after being eff'd over? And if you got through it, can you let me know how?
I'd love to meet Mr. Right & not Mr. Right Now, or Mr. I Only Want You RIGHT now.