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Okay, so long story short, I've been dating my current boyfriend for almost a year now and he is truly the BEST boyfriend I have ever had. He is sweet, caring, attentive, willing to do ANYTHING to make me happy. Not to mention he works really hard to be able to spoil me rotten. All in all, he's perfect.
But with all that being said, I feel as though my love for him isn't as strong as what he has for me. In our relationship, he's always been more attached to me than the other way around. When we fight, I'm the type that would go to sleep fine and worry about it after. He on the other hand, would not be able to sleep and would stay awake most of the night; then feel like crap the day after at work.
He's done SO much for me and I know I have a good guy, treating me right and the way I always envisioned the perfect boyfriend to be. However, despite all the things that he's done for me and while I greatly appreciate it every day, I can't seem to feel in love with him.
I do like him and feel lucky to have ever met a guy like him the first place, I just don't know if I love him.
To be honest, if we ever break up, then of course I would be sad and miss him like crazy but I also know that I would be able to move on much faster (or so I think). However, he would be DEVASTATED and I know that because of the way he reacts every time we fight or go on a break (this happened once, and I won't get into it).
And that is one of the reasons why I can't seem to break it off with him. He's done so much for me that I feel like I owe it to him and I don't have the heart to hurt him. It would kill me to know I have emotionally crushed someone that has been nothing but good to me and I feel as though I am holding onto him, hoping that over time, my feelings will eventually grow.
I'm just confused with my feelings at the moment... is it because I know I have caught him that my feelings just aren't as strong? Is it because he has always been the one that tried so hard that I've grown used to it and not trying as hard?