Saturday, 30 June 2012
It has been a huge thing with men, macho men in particular, to make sure it is crystal clear that they are not homosexuals and will never be gay. Is that kind of machismo behavior deceiving? I think it is, and this is why:
1. I don't see any reason why someone would have to be so animate about not being gay that he/she would have to show hate, indifference, feel uncomfortable, or jump on the "eww" bandwagon, unless he/she is hiding something.
2. There is scientific evidence that, in my opinion, lead to strong possibilities that everyone has had homosexual thoughts, feelings, or both; men have xy chromosomes -- one feminine or female, and one masculine or male. Women have xx chromosomes -- if there was any engineering for gay thoughts in men or women it would be because of our chemistry.
I believe the girl that resides within all men has come out at least once or twice. Women have nothing but girl chromosomes so I believe that women have not only had the thoughts, feelings, or both, it has been sub-consciously more accepted in society. Don't get it twisted, I'm not saying that gay women don't have a lot of bigotry, prejudice, or heartbreak to fight and/or overcome, but, because of that "macho attitude", men might get a bit more grief for this human fact than a woman (in my opinion).
3. Comparing penis sizes in the showers, sitting in a circle and masturbating to see who ejaculates first, masturbating standing up to see who ejaculates farther, games like "Oookie Cookie," where supposed straight guys are masturbating over a cookie, ejaculate on the cookie, and then the last person who ejaculates has to eat the cookie -- even skinny dipping with a bunch of guys -- these are all the things that I've heard of that just don't sound very heterosexual (I've only done the skinny dipping -- the other stuff I haven't experienced).
Women getting drunk at parties and making out, cuddling and sleeping in the same bed, friends bikini waxing each other, holding hands, and complimenting each others legs, butts, breasts -- calling another girl hot. Does that sound completely straight to you, or might there be some light homosexuality in those interactions as well?
So what's the big deal? Why is there such a problem with thinking, feeling, or having a gay experience? Is it really wrong or is it natural? Does it make you gay to think, feel, or experience intimacy with someone from the same sex? Well, if you said yes, you just might be the one that's wrong. Sexuality is complex, and concrete answers are non-existent (http://uk.answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20100409031807AAzOCCY, http://www.sodahead.com/living/does-one-homosexual-experience-make-you-gay/question-1461845/.
The bottom line is: for those who are having thoughts, feelings, or both -- don't hate yourself and use those who are comfortable with their sexuality as scapegoats. No one else has anything to do with it, it's not their fault, and you can't extract human nature from yourself. You will always be who you are, where ever you are, and even if you don't know who you are -- Love yourself always and take everything with stride.
Have I ever had gay thoughts, feelings, or both? I'll put it this way -- I'm mostly straight but, sometimes the girl in me likes to come out and sit on my lap...
And no, I'm not ashamed about being a human being!