Wednesday, 27 June 2012
My ex-boyfriend and I broke up two months ago. We had that lovey-dovey type of relationship. Those types of relationships that others apparently "envied" so much. We always joked and teased each other. We were comfortable. We enjoyed spending time together. We had our bumps along the road and no matter what the situation was, we always found a way back to each other. He used to believe in "no sex before marriage."
When I say, "used to," I think everyone knows what that means. We did sleep together. Since then, everything changed. We were still inseparable, we couldn't keep our hands off each other, we were always together, we were exclusive... Well, that's what I thought.
What happened? Two months ago he started acting strange.
He told me I deserved better, that I should move on, everything to him was "sketchy," etc. I didn't know what he meant by that. I found out that he slept with another girl... His explanation today still isn't as clear. Not that it matters because I made it clear plenty of times that I would not get back together with someone who cheated on me. Obviously, I was heartbroken, angry and I haven't see him since then.
We didn't speak for a month and I received a text message two weeks ago from him saying that he missed me, he was depressed, and he made a mistake. Last week he texted me saying that he had a dream about me and that he thinks about me at night. Again, I have no intention of getting back together with him because I don't trust him. I don't think I can see him the same anymore... but at the same time, I care about him. A lot.
This week is different... he started drifting away. He stopped answering my text messages. I see him flirting with a few girls. I even heard from him that he doesn't see the point in waiting to have sex with another person because he can't exactly, "re-lose" his virginity again. My brother tells me that he thought something was going on between him and some other girl but he could possibly be wrong.
I even approached his best friend about it, wondering what has been going on since my ex-boyfriend's actions were completely different from what he was telling me. His best friend said that he hasn't mentioned me at all. He said the only thing he got out of him was that he wants to see me but at the same time he doesn't, because it would hurt him too much.
He says that, but he also says my ex-boyfriend doesn't have any interest in any girl at all right now. But even then, I had people message me asking me to talk to my ex-boyfriend because apparently he's been "depressed."
I am getting mixed signals from my ex-boyfriend. I'm not sure what to think of this. I'm not sure if he's trying to play some sort of joke on me, if he's messing with me, or if he's even telling me the truth. I don't know what's running through his mind right now. I am a straight-forward person. I like straight-forward answers....
Whenever I try to ask him straight up, he always says "nothing is wrong" or "I don't know what you're talking about." My brother thinks that he wasn't lying but instead "pities" him because he seems to never know what he wants and he's probably too "easy." My sister thinks it's pride. He can't admit to others that he misses me. Others? Thinks that he just wants to have sex.
To those who wonder why I even care about this at all: I know I have no intention in getting back together with him... I guess it just bothers me a lot because I still have feelings for him. I was doing fine without hearing from him for a while but then shows up and says all these things. It confuses me when he just walks off and doesn't say anything after he says so much.
So my questions are: What do you think is going on right now? What do you think he's doing? What do you think I should do? Do you think he's playing me, lying to me, or just trying to use me for sex?