Sunday, 06 May 2012
This post was submitted anonymously.
Hey readers, I want an opinion on something that I just can't seem to figure out. You see, my older brother's best friend who I've known since I was 5-1/2-years-old is starting to really appeal to me. We practically grew up together. We're neighbors and he's been friends with my brother for the last 13 years. When I was younger, I always used to follow them around (what little sister didn't follow her older brother and his friends around? It could have been just me though), and yes I will admit I did have a crush on him way back in the day, but I was young and any cute boy I met, I liked.
However, now that I'm 18, turning 19 this November, things just seem to be different. I'm starting to see him a bit differently. He's what I call my "Butterfly Man." My friend and I made this term up because we've come to the conclusion that no matter how old you are or who you're with, there will always be that one person that gives you butterflies in your stomach (unless the person you're with is your "Butterfly SO").
When he's around I just can't help but smile. I think about him more often than not, and when he's home from college I actually want him to come over just so I can see him. My brother has been telling me for years that he wants me and him to get married.
My brother wants to be related to him and for some odd reason, his best friend's family also talks about us getting married. My brother told me they want us to get married, so of course it has put the idea in my head. Sometimes I see him stare at me for a moment and then quickly look away. One time he was over with another one of his friends and we were all watching a movie in the living room. I would see him turn a bit and look at me.
He didn't think I noticed because all the light were off. He's having a graduation/birthday party this June and in the beginning according to my brother, I was invited but then recently a few weeks ago he told me I was no longer invited because it's for "21 and older." It actually upset me. I didn't make it seem that way, though.
He still needs time to have fun if you know what I mean, and so do I. I just don't know what it's all supposed to mean. Maybe I'm over-thinking everything, maybe I'm onto something. I don't even know if he cares about me. I hope he does, not that way but just in general.
I know I care about him, not like that but in general. He even once said that if he watched someone grow up he would always see them as a child (he was referring to my little brother, because he watched him from up from 1 to 14-years-old this June), but when I said, "I'm not a child," he said no not you, I was talking about your little brother.
That to me seems like, oh maybe it's a possibility the idea of us two has gone through his head.
So Datingish, my question is what is your opinion? I don't plan on doing something about it, at least not for a few years, but do you think I'm on to something?