Wednesday, 02 May 2012
Three years ago I met this boy. I was 13, he was 16. We hung out and shared our first kiss together but after that day, we lost contact. He got put in a juvenile detention center.
Well three years later in July of 2011, he messaged me on Facebook and we got back in touch. He told me he got locked up for a 4-6 months and after he got out, had a son with his now ex-girlfriend. His son is two as of January 2012. They broke up and he got with another girl who he has a 9 month old daughter with. I got with this boy when his daughter was two months old, so I have watched both of his kids grow up. I get along with both of the childrens' mothers and everyone in his family.
We have been together for 9 months. He's 20 years old and I'll be 17 in June. We got close really fast. We've have had more sexual partners than teens of our age should have and well... we have genital herpes together and aren't really sure who gave it to who. Well, that is NOT why we are staying together. We have fallen in love. (Love knows no age, so shut up.)
If it wasn't for us meeting three years ago, we would not have gotten this close this fast. On Christmas day, he proposed to me! He knows for sure he wants to be with me forever and wants to start a family. Well, I have been off my birth control and we have been trying for the past 4-5 months. So far nothing has happened, but we're still trying.
We fight a lot, have major jealousy problems and can't seem to get over it. He is jealous of any guy who even looks at me, and I can't stand any girl who eyes him up. It's not that we do anything about it, it's just, when I am at work he's afraid I'm flirting with other guys, and I'm not. We end up fighting over stupid things.
At the beginning of April, he had cheated on me. He felt pressure with the guys flirting with me at work and didn't want to get hurt. I don't know if I'm the only one who understands this but he would rather hurt someone before he himself gets hurt. Well, we got past the cheating and we're moving on. No big deal.
The reason I am writing this is,
1. To vent.
2. I want opinions.
How can we get past this jealousy of other people and trust each other 100%? Right now our trust levels for each other are 95% just because we're scared to lose one another.
I love him more than anything in the world and I know he feels the same. We just need help getting past the stupid fights and jealousy.
Please be nice. I don't want to read comments containing anything like:
- He has two kids and hes only 20?!
- You're only 16 and engaged?!
- He wants kids with you, you're too young, you'll ruin your life.
- He cheated on you! You shouldn't trust him.
- blah blah blah. etc...
I just want to know how to control my jealousy and stop our fights.