Monday, 09 April 2012
This post was submitted anonymously.
I'm just an average 16-year-old guy. I have a girlfriend, and we've been together for 2 years and 3 months now.We met during my sophomore year and things were great from then on out. Although during my senior year (I just graduated from high school), I had this classmate that I didn't pay too much attention to, but only recently have I found out that I am attracted to this girl. She's so kind to me and is one of, if not the most, understanding girls in my class. I love her personality, and I really enjoy spending time with her.
This classmate has been my friend since freshman year. My girlfriend, who is my first love, is from a different school, but come college we will go to the same campus. My girlfriend believes (and I mean seriously believes) that I am in love with said girl, though I do convince her otherwise. I love my girlfriend, I am her first boyfriend, and we cherish each other. I don't see said classmate anymore, but I really am looking forward to seeing her again. I don't know, I love my girlfriend, but suddenly this classmate just lights up my world.
Maybe I feel this way for her because of the big difference in personality between her and my girlfriend. She is just so outgoing and loves to be with everyone, gentle but homely and she isn't conservative like my girlfriend. Although I do like my girlfriend being conservative, it's just that sometimes I do need intimacy.
I don't mean sex or touches, I mean the "physical closeness" that cute couples have like walking holding hands, putting your head on a chest or shoulder, even having a hand around the waist (she finds this difficult to do). When a picture of us is being taken and I do this, I hate how she pushes my wrist back.
Maybe I am not in love with said classmate, maybe I am just finding what I want to see in my girlfriend that she has. At this point you may think I'm unstable after a slight overreaction to my girlfriend's lack of intimacy. Well, I hope I'm not acting weirdly. It's just that my girlfriend finds it really hard being physically comfy with me, I really feel that she loves me but I don't know if she's not trying hard enough or that she just can't get intimate. And my classmate, I really am messed up thinking about her, how she laughs, how her eyes sparkle when I look at them. I am so confused.
What do you think?