Sunday, 08 April 2012
One of my most cherished friends has been a friend since I was a freshman, and she was a sophomore in high school. Her name is S. S has been through a good bit of drama like everyone has in their lives, but most of her troubles revolve around relationships. I've always been there for her from hook-up to hook-up and short relationship through short relationship. S is very...confused. She is always with someone, then she "sexts" someone, and then it goes downhill for her.
She has a very hard time with guys, because she clings to every boy she can, and within the first week, she says the dreaded of all words to teenage boys... the "L" word. As much as I want to be honest with her, I'm scared to tell her that she can't just go around sleeping with everyone and then crying about not being able to find a decent relationship.
She has gone to every single one of my ex-boyfriends and sent them dirty pictures and went out with them after I did without my permission... which is one of the biggest violations a girl can commit in a friendship. Sloppy seconds, anyone?
To this day we still remain cautious friends, letting the past fade away, and I, as a good Samaritan, comfort her and am there for her, because she's a bit suicidal, and I know I'm the only person she can talk to.
My boyfriend (we'll call him J) and I have been dating for about six months. I've never had a long-lasting relationship, and this is very new for me. He is a really respectful, nice, understanding person, mostly a chill kind of dude, that doesn't really get into drama or anything. He and I have a pretty good relationship full of trust and a good chemistry. We barely ever fight and I'd say I'm extremely happy.
Last night after school, he surprised me with a visit after he took his mom to work. We went for a walk to the park across my house. We are not sexually active, because I'm shy and I've decided to wait. He respects my decisions, but every now and then we get into the subject of our past experiences with the opposite sex. Somehow, we wandered into the subject of a girl who tried to hook up with him...little did I know, this girl was S. "I've been sexted before." I stared at him (I'm very sensitive), and I could feel my ears get hot. "By who?" I asked reluctantly. "S," he replied.
I was completely and utterly taken aback. I started to feel tears rim my eyes. S had tried to screw around with MY boyfriend and didn't even tell me... I admitted silently to myself that this was not a surprise, and I shouldn't have given her another chance at our friendship. My boyfriend watched my face and cupped my chin in his hands. "Are you okay?" I started to sob when he told me that he told her, "Take it slow with your striptease."
I wanted to get up and run away, but he quickly added, "I went along with it for a little bit, just to get her out of my hair. I want you to know that I love you and you know I would never ever do anything with S, even if she has tried multiple times." I wanted to scream. What the hell was she doing with my boyfriend?! My voice was stern, "When was this?" "Your freshman year, and my sophomore year." I remember that year... S introduced me to J my freshman year after I kept shyly googly-eyeing him from across the room. I was smitten, and she knew it, too.
At this moment, I wanted to explode. I pressed my face in my boyfriend's shoulder and cried even more. My "best friend" had stabbed me in the back, once again.
So here's the big Q. Should I confront her about it or not?!