Sunday, 08 April 2012
I am a 15-year-old male in high school. I will be turning 16 in a few months, while my girlfriend is 17, and will turn 18 towards the end of the year. We have been dating for about 4 months now. Saturday we decided to hang out together for a few hours and we haven't been able to spend as much time together because she has been very busy lately (she likes to keep herself busy). We've both been busy with school work.
This date however, didn't feel the same. Two or three weeks ago, we used to love spending time with each other but ever since the last time we hung out (which is two or three weeks ago), she has been feeling more stressed out. I give her space; I don't force her hang out with me because I know how busy she is. I do not abuse her, I'm not controlling or anything. The only crime I am guilty of, is hiding my emotions.
I always put a smile on my face and pretend nothing is wrong. But two days ago, I asked her, "How do you feel? How do you feel about me? I'm very scared asking this, but I've been feeling less confident lately." She responds by saying she doesn't know. She hasn't been able to think for the past week or so and needs some time to think. So I respect what she says and give her some time.
She then texts me the noon of and says that she thinks that we should break up; not completely break up, but go on a relationship break. She wants some time to find herself again apparently. I called her and spoke to her about the text and asked her if we could hang out today just for an hour or two to talk and we did. From hanging out, she decided that it would be best if we went on a break to be able to find herself, or rejuvenate because she is going through a tough time right now.
I made her shake on it, that by the time she finds herself if she still has feelings for me and I for her, and was not with anyone else, we would get back together.
I need some advice, what should I do? I haven't slept since Thursday and I cannot think. Is this just another weak way of saying that she wants to break up but wants my feelings to fade away so it won't be so devastating? I'm afraid of becoming good friends for the time being because then I would most likely be in the friend zone, which is the WORST zone.
I kind of want to leave her be for a little bit, just to give her time to reflect but that seems very difficult, she was my best friend. I don't want to show her how I'm feeling because then she would feel bad and not want me to go through it and end it for good. But there is also the chance that she has just lost the feelings for me.
What do you guys think? Please be as honest as possible.