Thursday, 22 March 2012
The more I think about it, the angrier I get.
I had it made with my first love back in the day. I was in college and everything was going great. We both had our lives on the right track. Then all of a sudden, I met this great guy. This really amazing guy who, I swear, is the male version of me; so compatible even our friends were in awe. I developed a big crush on said guy and simultaneously held strong feelings for him and my then-boyfriend.
However, my boyfriend broke my heart twice twice in the past. And since then I have not been able to narrow my feelings down to just one person. And it is beyond frustrating.
Now it seems that, whether I'm in a relationship or not, I'm interested in multiple people. I feel like I can't focus on one person like I should, because someone else is always catching my attention. I don't pursue guy after guy after guy, but I feel like I should have blinders on when I'm at least in a relationship, yet I can't help but wonder what it would be like to be with whoever I'm interested in.
Have you ever been interested in someone else while in a relationship? Is there a way to actively combat these feelings? Or should I leave my boyfriend?