Friday, 09 March 2012
I finally got the guy of my dreams three years ago. My twin brother and him were best friends; he was my first crush. Through high school and middle school, whenever I was dating someone, I couldn't help but think of him. Half-way through sophomore year, he asked me out. We've never really had any major issues over the course of three years besides when he broke up with me once after six months of dating, but then we got back together, and it strengthened our relationship.
On and off for the past few months, I've been second guessing our relationship. After he finishes college, he wants to move to California... and asked me to go with. The thing is, as much as I love him, I could not bring myself to move away. Sometimes he also just seems really immature to me. I do everything for this man, and he often doesn't appreciate it or let alone say thank you. He always interrupts our time by inviting his friends over.
I'm more than okay with him needing his space and his friend time, but shouldn't our time we set aside matter just as much? He says he's sorry, I deserve more, and that he'll fix it, but he never sounds like he means it. We're both each other's first loves and real relationship. Am I just worried to leave it because I won't find another?
Warning: I would never, ever cheat on someone.
A week ago, I met another man.... We were just talking on some chatting app (for friends, not relationships) and it turns out we live twenty minutes away from each other. There is a six year age difference, but if I'm not talking to him, he's all I can think about. He has easily said the nicest things I've ever heard. They're not cliché, they're truly... genuine. We have so much in common and he's the only one I want to talk to.
I feel like I've lost the spark with my boyfriend, and not just because I met this guy. My boyfriend and I are still together. We have SO much history together. If we did break up, how do you even get over knowing someone your whole life? And how would a six year age difference work out? I'm much too logical and think with my mind.
I know I should talk to my boyfriend, but I don't want to freak him out or cause panic for no reason because he's done that to me and that was the worst thing ever.
What should I do?