Sunday, 04 March 2012
Okay, I have a serious problem. I've been in a very loving, open, honest relationships with a really great guy for almost 2 years now. He's amazing to me, sweet, loving, and kind of a geek. Here's the problem though:
He was a rebound from my first relationship.
My first relationship lasted 4 years, had an insane amounts of ups and downs, passion, rage, just the whole roller coaster of emotions. We had a horrible break-up because he couldn't appreciate me and I believed that both of us deserved better. Within these two years, I've had many happy memories with my new boyfriend. Lately though, it seems like whenever I go to sleep after having a good day, I dream about my ex. Specifically, cheating on my boyfriend with my ex.
What makes this situation even more unbearable is that both of us have moved on and done different things, grown as people, and we both agreed that if we ever were to get back together we would work harder to make it work because we genuinely love each other.
These dreams have gotten more frequent over the last year and won't let me move on. I get sad and depressed whenever I have them because I feel like I can't give my boyfriend what he needs if my head is with him and I'm dreaming of my ex.
Have you ever been in this situation before? Are they just my subconscious thoughts working out past shit or am I seriously just fucking stupid?