Friday, 17 February 2012
I had an argument with the boyfriend the other day.
We had gone for drinks with an old high school friend of mine and we end up talking about my past and the people I had slept with when I was younger. Later when we got home, he was in quite a bad mood and I asked him what was wrong. He said he doesn't like hearing about my past. He said he accepts it and knows he can't change them and understands that I'm a better person now, but he still doesn't want to hear about it.
Thing is, I want to know about his past. I want to know experiences he's been through. I want to know about people he's slept with and blah. And it wouldn't hurt me emotionally if I knew about it because it was in the past and it happened before we even knew each other. So why does it hurt him? I want to be able to be myself around him and not have to filter out topics.
My past is bound to come up in conversation around my friends or in whatever we end up talking about and I don't want to have to be like "oh wait. Let's not talk about this because it makes my boyfriend uncomfortable." I don't think I should have to censor out my thoughts.
Or perhaps I'm just being selfish and insensitive.
Do men and women have different sensitivities to a partner's past? Or am I just a cold-hearted bitch.