Thursday, 08 September 2011
I have been dating my boyfriend for a little over a year now. Things are fantastic! We moved in together, and things couldn't be better. I go to college and he works ALL DAY, but that's not the problem. The other day, he had gotten an email that had woken he and I both. Usually when he gets these emails, it's okay for me to read because it's usually just a Facebook notification. But this time it wasn't. It was a very long email from his ex girlfriend saying words like she still loves him, she can't get over him.
I'm sure, in every girl's mind you're thinking, "What the hell!" That was exactly what I was thinking. For the first time, since I've been with my boyfriend, I felt like there was a threat to our relationship. I'm sure like most girls, you would want to know what the heck was going on.
That same day, he left his email open, on the laptop. BIG MISTAKE. When you have a girlfriend who thinks something's up, you do not leave your email wide open. So I did what every concerned and threatened girlfriend would do, I looked for that damn email. I know I shouldn't invade his privacy like that, I respect him, and what I did was very wrong. But I needed to know something.
I saw a series of messages between my boyfriend and his ex from a few months after we've been dating up until a few days ago. I was furious. So I began reading and reading and reading... I was left sitting in the computer chair crying my stupid eyes out. I had read that he still called her 'babe' and 'baby' and that he still told her that he loved her. WHAT THE HECK.
Hours have gone by, and I was feeling horrible for invading his privacy but most importantly, I felt like he still loved her.
That day, I briefly told him that i saw the message he received, but I did not tell him that I had read the OTHER emails. I admit, it was wrong on my part to even go through the emails, but I don't know what to feel anymore. I don't know why I'm upset... well I know why I'm upset... I'm just an emotional wreck right now and I need a few pointers on what it is I should do.
Any advice would be great.