Thursday, 11 August 2011
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I Finally Fell in Love
Lying down on my living room couch it hit me. I realized it then while we were cuddled up in a knot. I love him and I’m in love with him. The idea that he would be leaving soon, the idea that it would all be over in a couple of weeks just began to asphyxiate me. It was right then and there that I knew I had fallen in love. All I kept saying to him was that I didn’t want to feel this way.
Yes, it feels amazing. It feels exactly like so many cheesy corny love songs describe it to be, but I’m a little upset that this happened to me. I feel like I’m being teased, but ten times worse. It’s worse because it's going to hurt when it's all said and done.
I never wanted to feel this vulnerable with a person to the point where I needed them like I need air.
I know it sounds obsessive, but it’s true. I feel so in sync and in tune with this guy that I know it’s going to hit me hard when I fall out of tune. It’s like this feeling of pure happiness knowing that you care so much for that person, and that person feels exactly the same way. You feel so comfortable and time flies so quickly even if you aren’t doing a thing.
I can’t believe I never knew what this felt like. All this time I’ve gone through life thinking that I’ve loved when all I had done was fallen in lust. I never want this feeling to end. What I can’t further understand is that it happened so quickly. There are times where I wonder if maybe this guy is my match, but then I block those thoughts out reminding myself that there is no such thing.
I’d rather be a pessimist than an optimist that always gets disappointed for being so optimistic.
Have you ever fallen in love before? What was so special about it for you? What was your epiphany moment like?
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"It’s worse because it's going to hurt when it's all said and done."
Not necessarily true. What exactly is happening in a few weeks?
I fell in love with my boyfriend and my epiphany moment never happened...I knew I loved him but I didn't admit to myself that I was in love with him for a while, until it was too late. Bahahah. By then I'd already written love poems about him and now I've moved a thousand miles across the country to live with him instead of us just visiting each other every so often. (he was in the Navy, stationed far away)
We're probably going to get married, so I'm going to go ahead and avoid that whole horrible breakup part. Distance wasn't going to fuck this up for me, psh.
You don't necessarily have to end it when he leaves... don't know why he's leaving, for what, or how long, but it's possible to do a LDR successfully.
yes i have and it was special because he was my firsts for everything. and how everything happened from a first date to kiss to cuddle to sex was adorable. i realized i loved him when my heart beat so hard i couldnt breathe and i was ok with it since i couldnt stop smiling. when i felt that way around him AND when i simply thought of him, it was an amazing realization. =) being in love doesnt have to be bad. enjoy it.
:)
When I fell in love, I was scared too. I was scared because I really knew that it was love, not just lust, not just infatuation and flutters in my heart, but all of those things and more. It was the feeling that I was safe, that he wanted me as much as I did him. It's the thought that I would never let him go, and that he would fight for that to never happen either. It makes sense for it to be scary. True love isn't exactly easy to come by.
I realised I was in love with my boyfriend after we'd finished having sex one time. I got a gush of emotions and thought "wow. I think i'm falling in love with him". it was a wonderful moment.
I cant quite ascertain what is happening for you in a few weeks.. BUT i should tell you, I feel in love with my boyfriend at the start of last september, and went away to university at the start of that october. It was scary but it has been do-able. we've been together for well over a year and i'm still crazy for him now despite the difficulties that come with long distance relationships.
If your man feels anything like you do, chances are it might be ok. it can be done :). Best of luck X