Monday, 11 July 2011
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My First Unrequited Crush
I was catching up with my best friend whom I've known since elementary school, and now that we're in steady, serious relationships, we joked around about our first crushes and talked about what would have happened if they worked out. The crush I look back on with the most sentimentality is the first one who outright rejected me, and pretty rudely too.
In second grade, I had a longer-than-a-week crush on a kid named "Dan".
He was the "new kid" that year, but instead of being picked on as expected, he was deemed way cooler than the rest of us because he was from out of the country and already spoke perfect English with a cute accent. He knew our playground games and sang our church songs and it seemed like he just fit in seamlessly. I don't really remember what he looks like, probably "dreamy and handsome" as I recall telling my best friend who had a crush on his brother.
I wasn't gutsy enough when I was seven to go up to him and tell him I liked him, but I was giddy enough to tell my closest girl friends I was totally going to marry this kid. Of course rumors spread like wildfires when you're in second grade and only have 20-something classmates, and of course he heard I liked him.
There were only two sections of second grade in my Catholic elementary school, 2-1 and 2-2. I was in 2-1 and Dan was in 2-2. My school was really traditional--boys walked on the right, girls on the left. We ate lunch at different tables and played gender-segregated games of tag during recess. I was really embarrassed when one of the boys in my class told me Dan knew about my crush and that he wanted to talk to me about it.
I was nervous that whole day. When we hadn't actually crossed paths for a week, I figured I was safe and that he forgot I had a crush on him.
The following Monday, I was assigned messenger duty for the week, so I brought notes and letters from my teacher down to the school office after morning announcements. As I was climbing up the stairs to go back to my classroom, I saw Dan at the top of the stairwell. There was another way to get back upstairs, but I wanted to be a brave little girl and walk past him all cool and collected, and not all spazzy like my friends became when they saw their crushes.
He wasn't walking down. He was totally waiting for me.
As I got to the top of the steps, I said hi. He didn't say hi back. All he had to say to me was, "I know you like me. Well you can stop because I don't and will never like you back."
Way to break my seven-year-old heart.
He moved away after the year was over and no one ever heard from him ever again. I used to watch this show called Destination Stardom and used to think Sunel Molina (watch below) was an "older version" of my crush and he would one day be singing on one of these shows, dedicating a public apology to me. Naïve thoughts! But I still smile back on them.
Do you remember your first crush? Was it a love requited or unrequited?
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OOoO It was Alberto ...bahaha he liked me too but I tried kissing him and he pushed me away. LMAO and I think my friend had a crush on him. oh man those were the simple days when those light up shoes were in and I had the balls to try to kiss a guy I had a crush on.
I used to run away from boys who had crushes on me. So if I was ever anyone's first crush, "I told her I liked her and she ran away crying"
Anyways for my first crush, my friends and I always played truth or dare and I never really had a choice for some reason and I got dared to kiss him on the cheek. 5 kisses a week.. yeah he got the point. Then we passed notes. LOL...
When I was seven I had a huge crush on a boy who lived down the street. I never told him I liked him, but I think he knew. He never said anything about it and I think he avoided the situation because he didn't like me back. We were pretty good friends. We rode the bus together and went to school together. When it snowed I would follow him down to his house, stepping in the footprints he left in the snow to avoid getting my pants wet, so we could play pokemon together. He had glasses and a bowl haircut, but he was so sweet and cute. Then we grew up, drifted apart. He got rid of his glasses and his bowl haircut and started working out. Suddenly he was handsome. I always knew he was, but the other girls started noticing. Around that time he developed a huge ego and became the biggest jerk. I stopped liking him. He's married now, which is really strange.
I'm Facebook friends with my kindergarten crush as of now
@scribbles - I love light up shoes!!!!! I always thought they would attract my crush somehow ;)
@o0_Innocent_0o@xanga - Awww why did you run away?! And that's adorable!
@love_and_blackberries@xanga - Argh it's the worst when awesome boys get egos and let everything get to their head :(
@x_damaged_yet_unbroken_x@xanga - Awww! Did he know you liked him?
I had a crush on the same guy from grade 4 to grade 6... We even went on a date!! But yeah, it got me no where, and the guy still acts like we are in grade 4.
Most of my Jr. High crushes were never returned back, plus, they only lasted for like a week or two.
I'm a late bloomer, my first unrequited crush was when I was 14 years old. I really liked him at the time, but he only thought of me as a friend. Years have passed and we still talk occasionally, and he recently got married to the girl he started a few years after I got rejected by him. (I.e. his high-school sweetheart.) I'm happy for both of them, and happy that nothing happened between us, haha.
@xraindropsonroses@xanga - Haha I used to think that all of my crushes had a two weeks-from-start expiration date. Until 5th grade when I had this crush until 7th grade, and then I started to like a new boy after that until 9th grade... etc. Maybe now I have a two years-from-start expiration date? :P
@tomorrow_may_rain@xanga - It's good that you were able to maintain a friendship after the rejection though. Sometimes it's just HARSH.
ALSO! I LOVE that story "Tomorrow May Rain" by Frank Goodman if that's what your username is refering to.
omg. i had so many unrequited crushes in middle school, i jumped from liking one guy to the next and i used to write their name on my arm with a sharpie(i squirm just thinking about seventh grade). guys avoided me like a plague. i had a couple of really rude rejections too. i can't remember exactly what one guy said to me but it was along the lines of im a clown or buffoon. ouchie. lol
my very first crush ive ever had was in second grade in china. every morning before school there is a school wide morning light aerobic routine where every class lines up by height side by side. i was the second tallest for girls in class (1)and he was the second tallest for guys for class (2) so we are aligned next to each other . he stares at me a lot and i started to stare at him back. and smile.. lol.i started writing "poems" about him and everyone in both classes know that i like him. well long story short it turns out he only stared at me because i was the only kid in second grade that wore glasses,facepalm. we exchanged a super awkard conversation in the hallway right around when titanic came out in 3rd grade, he called my name, i was against the wall, he placed his hand right next to my head and asked me if i loved him. hahahahhahaa. i started talking to him in 6th grade though and became friends, and we still keep in touchAww...what a jerk! Even little boys can be such jerks...especially the one's that have been deemed "cool", because they're just that more arrogant. I remember telling one friend about a crush of mine back in elementary school, and by the next day the entire 5th grade knew about it. It happened to me twice. That is why, even though I'm 21 going on 22 soon, I still don't feel comfortable telling my friends about any guys that I like. I have a fear of being humiliated again, even though I'm an adult. haha.
Requited. But a few years later I became way too shy to actually speak to any of my crushes... Luckily I grew out of that in a hurry.
@dangelb - Yes he did! I would chase him around the playground, screaming "I LOVE YOU, JEREMY GOVAS!" at the top of my lungs! So, yeah, he knew!
@dangelb - LOLOL those were the days of cooties and boys are gross ^____^Y and one of them did scar me -___-;
@katethoughts@xanga - Haha!!! And did you say you loved him?! That's too cute! I'm always writing poetry and I remember I read one of my "love poems" about my 5th grade crush out loud in class, and he told me after class I needed to destroy it because everyone knew and it was embarrassing him!!! :(
@SuGaBaYbiEx69@xanga - That's not a totally unfounded fear and I can definitely relate. After all my friends not being able to keep their mouths shut (I mean I was in a class of like 20-25 people in the entire grade, everyone was bound to know!) I actually would rather tell the guy straight up rather than have everyone find out. At least that's how I am now. And in that way I can save myself from being the the Rejected Girl Everyone Needs to Comfort just cuz they never found out about my fancy in the first place!
@dangelb - It is harsh, but we were young and silly back then so it was easier. I wish I could maintain a friendship with my ex the way I could with my first unrequited crush!
And no, my username is in reference to The Beatles song. :)
@tomorrow_may_rain@xanga - That's true... when "love" was expressed in the form of sharing Dunk-a-Roos during snack time... :)
True! That's a great song!!!
Haha. I remember my elementary school crushes, my very first one was Ryan Hrobak. I don't even know what he's up to these days, although we facebooked in high school a bit. I never told him.
My first real crush, though, where I actually liked the guy for his personality, etc...? Brad Seadler. Unfortunately, I can't find him anywhere, although I've looked. I think I could actually still like him, if he didn't become an ass. LOL.
@gilly_owens@xanga - Awww. :( that is seriously the worst!!! Sometimes I Facebook these guys I used to like and think to myself, "wth did I EVER see in you?!"
Speaking of likeing personalities... the first crush I had on a kid mainly because he was soooo funny and bubbly all the time was this kid I liked in 3rd grade. I kept in touch with him all throughout middle school, high school, and even up until now. I told him I really liked him about three years ago and he was like, "I know, you were all over me all the time and always tried to sit next to me." LOL. I suck at being subtle, so that's why now I just admit to everything right away haha.
@dangelb - I usually just tell them, too, life's too short to waste time not letting someone know. Plus when I like someone it's generally obvious, too, so... Lol.
When I was younger I was the only girl of my ethnicity in elementary school and junior high and I went to school with some pretty racist kids, so not one of the 3 boys I was interested in liked me back. Went to a good high school with educated people, haven't had to look back since.