Sunday, 10 July 2011

• For The Dogs

  

  I'm a dog person because dogs are amazing companions, they always greet you when you walk through the door, and they love you unconditionally. You can get into a fight with your dog and 5 minutes later they love you all the same. But there is nothing sweeter than a puppy when everything is new and fun.

  I used to think of my first serious boyfriend as a puppy. He was sweet, loyal, a great cuddler, and my best friend. I also referred to what we had as "puppy love," a pure love untouched by previous heartache and uninfluenced by the amount of options to pick and chose from in the college world. He loved me and I loved him and everything was as sweet as sugar, until we broke up and he became a dog.

  My puppy of a boyfriend turned into a dog of an ex who after dating me dated someone completely the opposite, joined a frat, and now considers himself a bro. Sitting down with him last summer we talked about what went wrong with our relationship 3 years ago and how we've changed since then. He stated how he wasn't aggressive enough or strong (emotionally) enough back then and felt it was a disservice to our relationship because maybe we could have lasted. He felt as if I was more of the guy and he was the girl in the sensitive department and now that he's grown up he's changed.

  I may have pushed him to do things he didn't want to and I may have wanted him to be more assertive, but for himself, he had so much potential and still does. But I still loved him for him, I loved that he was sensitive and that I could call him a puppy. The purity of that relationship is what I cherish the most and watching him grow up I hope my influence hasn't hardened him into a dog.

  Everyone grows up and everyone has relationships that teach them to be better the next time but I would hate to be that girl that took the sweetness out of him. He pretends to respect women less saying things like "Did you tap that ass?" with his friends. He says he doesn't believe in marriage when years ago he asked me if I would ever marry him.
  
  He even wears a lax penny to seem athletic and he has seriously taken up running but I hope he's not trying to run away from who he was to be a shell of his old self. Whenever I see him I know he melts back into his puppy dog self, almost unchanged beneath the mask he wears to impress me, his bro-ness doesn't fool me.

  While I'm glad he has learned things for himself to make other relationships better I'd like to think he doesn't use that knowledge to put up a tough front and guard himself. I just hope he finds another girl who will bring out his inner puppy dog.

  Have you ever felt your influence has changed a guy from a puppy to a dog?

  Image Source

  • 6:00 PM
  • 1308 Views
  • 8 eProps
  • 4 Comments