Let me start off by saying I'm not sure if I can make this any less confusing, or any less lengthy.
Long story short, after I was raped I told one person. It was someone I was crushing on before, but we had a fight and spent months apart. This person was sick, and sometimes used it as a guilt trip. They blamed me for a coma, and then ditched me after I told them I was raped.
Fucked up, I know.
But that was months and months ago. Almost a year. I started talking to them again, and whenever I was around them, I felt like shit. But when I wasn't, I was fine. When I tried to confront them on things that were hurtful, they'd change the subject, or get mad. They would never admit to mistakes, and never admit their faults.
I made mistakes. I just sent harsh texts to his sister because he wouldn't text me himself. They share a phone. It's weird, I know. Honestly that was pitiful. Having your younger sister fight your own battles for you. Basically it was me saying take a hike, and a few punch lines here and there. I said hey, I realized china guys aint packing, and if I wanted to date a woman I would. I'm not racist, I just knew that would hit a nerve. My recent conclusion is he must not be packing. Why else would he be such a douche bag? But obviously I had the problem to even consider talking to someone who did that to me. And who wouldn't admit ONCE not even once that they did wrong, that they have faults.
Instead it was always me holding the guilt and bearing the same. I finally realize none of it was my fault. There was a large part on his end. So.Was I wrong to tell him I didn't want anything to do with him? I think I was right, but I would appreciate the input.