Sunday, 10 April 2011
Recently, I've been going through this heart aching pain. A guy that I used to talk to suddenly disappeared from my life. Why? I'm not sure. I'm pretty mad at the fact that I'm not worth the truth. I know this guy isn't sitting there moping around about me, so why am I? You know, it's weird because you spend a while with a person, do a lot for them and the next day they're done with you.
God placed this guy in my life either to have me learn from him or learn from pain. I'm not sure which one it is yet. I got so close to this guy that I'm at the point where it hurts whenever I think about him and the person he used to be. What hurts the most is thinking about the fact that he's not the person who I want who wanted me. I put my guard down for him and he didn't care.
I can now say that love does not run in my vocabulary anymore. I know this might sound cold and bitter but why should I want someone who is only there to put me down? How do I know that another person won't do this to me again?
What do you do if you're in this situation? How would you handle it?