Tuesday, 22 March 2011
I'm in this odd situation, and I UNDERSTAND what's going on, but my mind and emotions just won't agree. For about two months now I've been sort of seeing this guy, we'll call him Bob. We met one night when he was helping a friend of mine move some furniture around.
He's actually a friend of her coworker who wanted to get with her, so Bob was also kind of there to act as a wingman. Before I met him, I heard he was a bit older and had a kid, which turned me off, but then I actually met him and he was really cute. The conversation was easy, and the four of us all were pretty comfortable.
I found out the next day that the feeling was mutual and that he wanted to hook up with me.So we all hung out again and exchanged numbers. I found out that he was pretty much an arrogant jack-ass, but I was only interested in physicality, so I didn't really mind.Curious, I waited for him to text me, and didn't hear anything for almost a week. Then one day he started texting me about nothing, and later that night, bluntly asked me if I wanted to hook up sometime. I was hesitant, but went over to his house and had a lot of fun.
We had really good chemistry and could talk really easily. We did as much talking as anything else. For a few days we were texting a lot, doing a lot of flirting and what not. That weekend, I slept with him, consequentially giving up my V-Card.
So over the next few weeks, the texting conversations were sporadic and unpredictable. I've seen him several more times and have had a lot of fun with him when I do see him. I KNOW that this is mostly just about the hook-up, but I can't stop myself from liking him in some way.
I know that there's no future here just because we're at such different points in our life, but I just can't seem to get him off my brain. I'm sure that the V-Card thing has a lot to do with my attachment to him. I know myself, and I can be obsessive about things, and this could very easily become one of them.
I have analyzed it and I am aware of the true situation here - we're both in it primarily for sex, with the added bonus of some respect and good conversation. Logically, I understand this. Emotionally, I am completely lost.
What should I do to get past this?