It's been six years since I've graduated from high school. I live out of state now. My life revolves around causes and social movements. My hair looks different. My attitude has changed.
If only my high school sweetheart could see me now...
I'm not the girl that I used to be. Life happens. Is my sweetie still as I remember? Would we fall in love all over again? Would I want to?
I don't know if we would fall in love again. It wasn't the brightest idea in the first place.
But that was the best part of being sixteen. You could fall in love for no reason, and in the end it all made sense.You could stay up for hours on the phone, not even talking, just listening to each other breathe in and out. Those were the good old days.
Secret glances during classroom exchanges, leaving love notes in each others' lockers, saying "I love you", like we knew what love really meant...Ignorance surely was bliss.
We were both so young and naive back then. I wish my high school sweetheart could see me now, all grown up and self-aware. Maybe we would be friends.
My ex beau...what a joke the whole thing was. But when I moved away to college, it couldn't have seemed more serious. I was overwhelmed by conflicting emotions. Back then, I was a slave to circumstance and fickle feelings.
If it were ever possible, I would love to sneak a peek into the life of the one who changed mine. I wish I could see who my beau is smitten with now. Is she the talkative type, reserved, or quick witted?
Mostly, I just want to look my former flame in the face to see what all the hype was about back then. I was really head over heels in high school...
The vibe would be different, I guess. The feelings wouldn't come rushing back. Just the recognition of what was, and what seemed to be, the greatest love I would ever know. I was such a dreamer.
But that's how high school loves go though. They change you, from the inside out, for better or for worse, until death of the relationship do you part...
Oh the quirky nature of love in the teenage years...that fluttery feeling, though abated, never really goes away. It lingers about in the air, at the sight of an old photo, the sound of an old tune, the slightest hint of hormones raging and hearts throbbing at sixteen, it flares up.
I wish my high school love could see me now. There would be nothing to say, and everything to tell...starting with "You were right...."
What would your high school sweetheart say if he or she could see YOU now?
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She told me she brags about me, even to guys she's interested in.
Last time I saw my high school sweetheart, he said, "Wow, you're so incredibly beautiful. Why did I ever give you up?" *shrugs*
I never had a high school sweatheart.
My first ex from high school has told me he's still in love with me. I rejected him and he stopped talking to me. Another would like to get back together with me and we're really good friends so I won't rule it out. Another hates my guts and I haven't seen him since graduation. Another is married and never acknowledges me when I run into him.
@UnconventionalButterfly@xanga - Me either.
I actually saw my old high school flame. I am so glad I did not marry her. She tried to talk to me but I told her to stand in front of my car while I start it up.
She'd probably try to belittle everything I've been doing since.
I'm still with mine...we've both changed so much. started off as two kids who thought they knew what love was. and now, a few years later have grown into one unit. our life together is like clock work and now we know what love is. some call it boring, but I consider myself to be the luckiest girl alive :)
and when we look back, we can't believe how much we've changed. both individually, and as a couple. sorry for the mushy-ness, trust me, i'm usually not the mushy type, but I just get amazed by it when I actually sit down and think about how far we've come!
She sees me a lot since we're best friends. :)
A few days ago, the guy who I lost my virginity to added me on Facebook. I didn't add him back.
@robbiearnold@xanga - oh just get over it already
I still talk to mine. I'm 20 about to be 21 in 3 weeks & in my 3rd year of school. I dated him from feb. of junior year until april of being a college freshman. We both are different for sure. I hate to say it, but i'm different in a good way & he's changed for the worse. His change is still hard for me to deal with, but thats what happens. People change especially when they are young are come out of a relationship that lasted over 2 yrs.
I'm hoping that I get to see my high school crush ten years from now and actually come up to me and say something actually everything about what he thought/felt about me.
My high school sweetheart and I don't talk much.
Granted it's only been a few months. Although I'm quite happy with my new girlfriend, I miss the bond she and I shared. I fell in love with her legitimately and sometimes it's not easy to let that go.
i actually just recently talked to my high school sweetheart for the first time in a while last week. he was still upset about the way we ended things. we were 17 and we're 23 now. he's accomplished a lot, and i've gotten married and moved away. i will never regret the relationship we had though. the innocence of it all really taught me something.
I don't really have a high school sweetheart. I dated a lot during high school and only had 1 or 2 'serious' boyfriends if even that. My current boyfriend and I dated my last semester of high school and he was the closest to a high school sweetheart I ever got. We did break up during the last half of the semester and we didn't talk again until the second semester of my first year of college. We definitely recognized a lot of significant differences in each other even in that short span of like seven months.
I don't talk to my high school boyfriend. We actually still have quite a few friends in common, so really, it's only a matter of time before we'll run into each other and start talking. I'd be fine with it--I've grown and changed so much since then, and I'm sure he has as well. I think it'd be interesting to catch up and see where life has taken each of us. I can certainly tell you that when I was 16 I never would have guessed I'd end up where I am today, and I'm sure he's been thrown a few surprises over the years, too. I want nothing but the best for him and hope life has been as good to him as it has been to me.
We said hi to each other a few days ago.. For the first time in months. Even though we go to the same school, we don't see each other. Which is probably a good thing. He kind of repulses me depending on the people he associates himself with. Heh.. But it was definitely some kind of interesting. lol
@UnconventionalButterfly@xanga - Me either. I was too busy being a partying player to have a sweetheart. I think that has served me well, too many of my girlfriends lament about their high school honeys and I'm just like "sucks to be you". well I don't SAY that but i'm thinking it.
@TheLizarellaProject@xanga - hahahaha
i didn't have one
What a well written post! Brought up a lot of memories of my highschool sweetheart. We didn't go to the same highschool but we lived about 5 houses down from each other and saw each other every day. Even though after 4 years he cheated on me and for as much as I hated him at the time, we shouldn't have been together. I always feel like if I were to see him now I would be embarassed about what has happend. (Was engaged, 2 weeks before the wedding it was called off, then after that got with my current boyfriend and had a child together out of wedlock.) Last I heard/saw my ex was in college, still living at home and engaged to be married (to the girl he cheated on me with almost 8 years ago!) Looking back now I should be proud at myself for getting through that instead of feeling like I'm a faliure.
Facebook him.
I met my high school sweetheart age two, haha. We were best friends for years, dated when we were fourteen-fifteen and sixteen-seventeen. We had an amicable split, and stayed best friends. Then when we were nineteen, he met another girl - she cheated on him twice and they now have a baby together, and a year ago, she made him choose between us. She chose him, and that was it.
He's probably make some crude remark and continue being an immature jackass as usual. We still have some mutual acquaintances in common, so we've run into each other a few times in the past. Last time he walked straight out of the tattoo shop without saying a word to anyone and drove off, I was pretty amused.