Sunday, 28 November 2010
I'm Christian. He's Christian.
And he doesn't know that I already had sex.
My sex life was completely hidden. I kept it a secret for almost a year, but now a few of my close friends know. Other than that, nobody ever suspects it because I appear to be very clean and innocent looking (or so I think).
Being intimate with my new boyfriend feels weird sometimes. Being his first girlfriend doesn't make it any easier. He's able to arouse me, but I restrict myself from going any further with him. We kiss, hug, make out... but something about it all doesn't seem right. I want to do more but I can't because we both attend the same church and it's just not right! I feel like this is such a new experience for him and I can tell that he's all pretty giddy about it too, but I don't feel the same way.
Have you ever experienced this before? Reaching third base and then running back to first? And then staying at first base until marriage (haha... that's the plan!)?
Also, do you think I should tell him that I'm experienced? Will that hinder our chances of being together?