Saturday, 20 November 2010
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A Year Ago, I Physically Abused My Girlfriend
Around this time last year, I was with someone that I "kinda" treated like shit.
Okay... minus the "kinda:" I slapped her. But for those that actually read my entries you know that I "confessed" on Datingish some time after the break up.
Time has gone by and I still think about her. It's not like I want to be with her, or want to be friends... it's just something that I think about. I've had people try to come back in my life but I'm still single. The main reason we even broke up was because I wasn't the way I am now, then.
Even though I never cheated, I kept my options (I have no options, I am no player but I felt like I was...it was super dumb) open. Knowing (and talking) to this other girl fucked things up. I even tried to hide it from my girlfriend. She was selling some outfits to someone and while she was taking forever, I was talking to the other girl (who happened to be my ex) not too far away. When my girlfriend asked, I didn't want to tell her who I was actually talking to because I knew it was wrong.
I know it was wrong, and then the hitting part (on top of all the shit I put her though, I hit her? I was so stupid)...
She knew those girls didn't mean anything, and she told me that, but of course I didn't listen. I stopped talking to both of them not because of her, I just got tired of the dumb shit. It would have been real nice for me to come to this realization when I was with her.
But it's a year later and I've grown tired of the dumb stuff. I try to keep in mind what I did to her and not do it if I can help it. Unfortunately, females don't make it easy with the games they play. All females have something wrong with them; that's just a fact of life. The thought of the grass being greener on the other side isn't what it seems, you're still gonna have to deal with dumb crap whoever you end up with. It only matters if they're special enough and you're willing to deal with them.
If only I knew then what I know now. Then we'd probably still be together...
Have you guys ever been in this kinda situation?
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I didn't like this blog. You're just digging yourself a big hole. You didn't do yourself any favours in writing this.
Male or female, everyone has their quirks.
Just make sure you don't hit someone again.
All females have something wrong with them? Maybe all your girlfriends acted crazy because you were acting like an ass.
@Pink_TeaCups@xanga - i would have to agree.
especially with this line "All females have something wrong with them; that's just a fact of life." really? yeah. us women make things sooooo hard for you men because we ALL play games and are messed up huh? WRONG.@beebizzle@xanga - Yep, thats what I thought too.
@ROASM@xanga - Agreed.
@Pink_TeaCups@xanga - I completely agree.
@Pink_TeaCups@xanga - what favor was i supposed to be doing???
@ROASM@xanga - Couldn't have said it better.
lol. perfect picture. entry = facepalm.
@ROASM@xanga - I see where he's coming from. He just phrased it badly. Everyone has FLAWS. The point is finding a girl whose flaws are acceptable to you to the point that you may even love them.
@dpisawesome - Your entry, you decide! All I'm saying is you didn't do yourself any favours. It's kind of a figure of speech.
@Pink_TeaCups@xanga - well it was my entry, you read it (regardless of you not liking it), where is there a topic for discussion where no favors were done?
EVERYONE has something wrong with them, that is a fact of life.*
Don't act like men are godly, they also have their problems.
@dpisawesome - You're not understanding my point.. Basically, what I meant was a lot of people aren't going to like this blog. And the comments which were made after mine kind of proves this.
@Pink_TeaCups@xanga - i got that "point" but that point isnt important. either they read it or not. i write for leisure, if i was getting PAID, then maybe i'd give a shit...
@dpisawesome - Then why did you care about my comment?
@Pink_TeaCups@xanga - i agree!
I love how it seems like you're remorseful, but then you end up saying how the female gender is in the wrong. There's probably a reason why you're still single...think about it.
The issue isn't that all partners or potential partners 'have something wrong with them', the issue is you don't have a healthy way of dealing with your disappointment in others. For your own future happiness, get some counseling, support group, ideas from books or websites etc on how to deal with YOUR frustration. Then you will never end up in this sort of emotional frustration OR in jail for assault.
People are who they are, the fact that we don't like some aspect of their personality doesn't mean THEY have something wrong with them. It just means that how they are isn't convenient for us. Lashing out at them is never an appropriate solution. Get some help in finding a better way of dealing with dissappointments.
eff you
Change never comes easy, but when it's positive, it is so worthwhile. I'm not sure what you're looking for... advice on what to do? How you ought to feel? I appreciate the fact that you seem to have realized where you went wrong. No, women don't make it easy to tolerate them when they play games, but you have to understand that there are other ways of dealing with frustration aside from physical attacks. We cannot always help the situations we find ourselves in, but we can ALWAYS determine our own actions. Remember that. Your decisions are 90% of the man you are right now.
the slapping aside, this post is scattered and terrible on so many levels. if benjy compson had a frontal lobectomy and listened to eminem while writing about his failed, abusive relationships... it would read something like this.
so what i'm getting from this, is if you knew that everyone had there quirks then you wouldn't have beaten her and then you guys would still be together.
bottom line, you did what you did. it SEEMS like you've learned your lesson. are you sure it's not some underlying anger issues? i suggest you should get some professional help before moving on into another relationship, because if there real underlying issue isn't addressed, this problem will carry into your next one, and the next, and the next.
that is true, all women have something wrong with them.and any female that doesnt agree with that is trying to hide something; but you have to remember that everyone has problems not just women.
and yeah you smacked her, big deal. its wrong but it happened and you cant do anything to change it, she cant do anything either so it just doesn't matter anymore.
its good you realized your mistake though. just don't do it again, ever.