My own love story (affectionately parodied from
plump_Katz)
I think most people have had that one very long crush or love; it was someone you just couldn't help falling for right after meeting them. It was something they did or how they looked at you that made something click. And then you were hooked. You either dated or you didn't.
I dated my very first boyfriend at 16, and he was just slightly younger than me. I was smitten, even though I didn't know him well, and in the spirit of typical teenage romantic thinking, I thought that we would last. We dated for 7 months before I decided to end it for a variety of reasons. It was a bad ending, but we're on good terms now.
Even though it was me who broke up with him, there were many moments thereafter in which I cried and was hurt because he secretly started dating someone else. It was during these times that I actually became close friends with one of my current best friends.
When I was dating my first boyfriend, I had often gone with him to the skating rink but I lost one of my skates the winter before we broke up; my best friend gave me a pair of skates for Christmas and told me it was time to get over him and go back to the skating rink. I was doing poorly in calculus; my best friend patiently explained questions and answers to me. I completed bits of the daily crossword; my best friend completed the other clues.
There were always rumours floating around in high school in our final year that my best friend and I were dating, and interviewing some high school friends in later years, people actually thought that we were. But I found out the hard way that things were not to be.
I had always hoped that my best friend would ask me out to prom because both of us were dateless. A week before the momentous occasion, he broke it to me in English class that he would be going with a girl that he dated briefly before. I was so upset that he only told me then, that I got mad at him. The day after, I was at the mall with my other friend, and I bumped into my best friend holding hands with the girl. He seemed to have neglected to tell me that they were dating, too.
All I could do was pretend to smile, but I ended up crying in the mall. When I went to the washroom in tears, the washroom was closed for cleaning and the cleaning lady saw me crying and said to me:
"“Aw, hun! I’m sorry. You know what, the baby section at Shoppers Drug Mart is real quiet. You can go on there and cry all you want.”
All in all, I did recover from this, and my best friend and I mended things without ever really addressing the problem because I didn't want to admit to him that I liked him. So life went on. Even though we obviously didn't flirt anymore, we carried on a very close friendship. He continued his relationship with his girlfriend, and I continued to like him, as much as I tried not to. It seemed that no matter what I did to let go of these intense feelings for him, he was always the one I came back to. And in the end, I resignedly accepted that these feelings were not going to go away, but they would never be requited either, and I didn't try to make it happen.
While your life moves on and you find better things, I think that everyone realizes that they still have very happy mini-love stories that they never want to forget. And I couldn't move on, nor could I forget.
So after 5 years, why do I bother to mention this person?
I think most people have that one very long crush or love; it is someone you just can't help falling for right after meeting them. It was something they did or how they looked at you that made something click. And then you were hooked. I was hooked. You either dated or you didn't.
I did.
And I am. And while my circumstances can't be described as romantic or ideal, it's nice to know that some people find their beautiful ending.
Do/Did you have one really long crush or love? What are your mini-love stories?
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Of course I do, but mine didn't end with a beautiful ending.
:) cute
I will always have a gut feeling of attraction towards my first girlfriend... and it's the same way on her end.
But we are by far not meant to be, and we both acknowledge that (you'd think after the second failure of dating that we would have gotten it, but it took three attempts over the course of four years to reason that out haha)...
And that was a tragic love story also. So I know how you feel.
On top of that, I have a best friend that I have feelings for that people think I am dating. I will also most likely never solve this love either, so I know how you feel for sure :)
- John
Thats cute!
I have two love stories. One kinda sad and one that hasnt ended yet, but its been a pretty happy one so far.
One was my first boyfriend that I got a week before I turned 15. We dated for 7 months, broke up, got back together for about 4 months, broke up again, then after helping me deal with another bad relationship i had gone through he ended up becoming one of my best friends, but after awhile my love for him (and wanting to get back together) and his attraction to me got the best of us and thus we had a complicated FWB relationship, finally we realized how toxic our FWB relationship was and we unfortunately ended everything. He was a first in many ways... he was my first kiss, my first boyfriend, my first love, my first sexual experience and then my first heartbreak. Despite ending everything we didnt end on bad terms. This boy was a major part of my life for years and I only wish him the best in everything.
My other love story is about my now fiance who I met right after the ending to my previous love story. We've been together for over a year and half and have the best relationship I can imagine. I know without a doubt that we're meant to be. But we would never have met if it werent for going through the previous love story which brings me to the conclusion, everything happens for a reason. This love story novel has no ending and i doubt it will for a very long time. =)
oh god... noooooooooooooo!
Oh, yes, I certainly do have a long-term "crush." I've known this guy for three years. I'm really close to his family, too. They love me; I love them. And I really love this guy and care for him. Though I've never told him about these feelings, I really think that he thinks of me as a sister or a good friend, just to be safe and not harbor any hope. He's dated twice since I fell for him; he's dating someone right now. I've decided that when he's done with this girl that he's dating (they're in high school, and this is her first relationship. She also doesn't seem to be ready for a long-term commitment.) I'm finally going to tell him how I feel about him and take it from there. If he doesn't reciprocate, I can move on. If he does, well, it just depends on when it happens.
*sigh* Six years, and she's my closest, best friend. It's never stopped. There's just something about some people. They never ever leave your heart. Even when you think you might be done with it, it'll come crashing back down on you. It's a beautifully sad thing.
Had a crush on my friend for two years. Told him. He didn't reciprocate. I got my closure and moved on.
So no happy ending for me.
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awww that is so sweet, am glad you found your happy ending.. and i do agree that there is one love you will never forget, i will never ever forget mine..
@kungfuhampster@xanga - Couldn't of had said it better myself
bitterly sweet...
Being hooked certainly isn't the nicest feeling ever. I am hooked too. Only your story seem more complete than mine. I dislike the feeling of passiveness. I couldn't do anything but standing there crying in the rain and watching him slipped away. Just like that... I am just an insignifcant person in his memory. Or, I am not even sure I am still in his memories. Perhaps, the next time we see is just like a familiar looking stranger passing by. Side by side.
I had a really long crush on a friend of mine who was another girl. Me being cynical about that whole "love" crap denied and denied it. I forced myself to stop those feelings. She kept teasing me because she knew about them.
What happened?
I got over her and we never spoke since we weren't really good friends anyway.
The end.
:D
- Kunoichi
I have my one love now, and I don't need anyone else.
My lastest post in my blog is a letter to him for this month's anniversary.
he wasn't really a boyfriend, more like a crush. i don't know. he was one of my sister's friends. he very randomly asked my sister one day: "___, what would you say if i took your sister to winter formal?" and i guess that's when i really started to like him.
that and being a sweet, understanding gentleman, he totally had me. and we talked a bit sometimes (to which my sister thought was weird because she didn't even talk to him that much). however, we never really went out. i think he knew i liked him, i'm not sure. but i didn't have a lot of time with him in the end anyway, because i moved at the end of the school year and he knew. about a month after i left, he went out with someone i've known since i was a toddler. also one of my sister's friends. haha. they're still going out.
so kind of a bittersweet end and i've never really gotten over him, but you never really forget your first love, do you?
my mini love story..or maybe a medium sized one : i met a guy when i was 14. we were long distanced. we always did incredible things to go see each other. he was 2 years older than me. we took trains, buses. got our parents to drive us. we would have to work and plan so hard but it was worth it because we were in love. he moved to be with me when i was 17 and worked for my dad for a year, then he left to go back to school. we continued to date and see eachother. we broke up for a few months and i dated others but it wasn't the same. we inevitably found our way back to eachother. it's amazing looking back to see how much we have been through together. we currently are having problems but in my opinion he is someone i doubt i could ever truly get over.
I'm about to post an entry up about my mini love story =)
that happened to me in high school. I met this guy freshmen year of HS in my geometry class and we were real close, in a high school sense. We would pass notes or talk in class. I mean he would talk about this girl he liked that was in a grade above us. He ended up never going out with this girl and most recently got engaged with his long term girlfriend. I would date other guys in high school, but parts of me would never let go of how much I liked this guy. I tried my hardest my junior and senior year. I finally gave up when we all graduated. I realized it was a waste of time crushing over a guy who would never like me. Five years later, at the end of college and things have changed. I no longer have any feelings for the guy and I'm in a wonderful relationship. I look back and laugh at how naive I was.
@kungfuhampster@xanga - I am so sorry. I have a three year "crush" like this too. So glad I am not alone. Hang in there. It could happen.
I've had a crush on this guy for almost two years. I still pine after him, dropping hints here and there but he doesn't seem to pick up on them and I'm too scared to actually say anything to him. Maybe one day I'll get the courage and see what happens. This story gives me hope though!
@meowmeow - Give it a try. You never know. Good Luck!!
@The_Aftershock_3650@xanga - maybe part of the journey is feeling the way you do, and when you do finally move on, you'll see how your experience fits into the scheme of things =)
@ingiardino@xanga - good luck with that! Sounds like you have a plan.
@kungfuhampster@xanga - I felt exactly the same way. Hope you'll find closure and be able to move on eventually or otherwise.
@KrazeeKunoichi009@xanga - :o It's harder when you're really close with the person.
@meowmeow - good luck! may you have the courage to change what you can, know what you can't change, and have the wisdom to know the difference =)
i have plenty if you check out my old posts lol
when i was 15 i fell for a girl who was 16. she wasn't beautiful by the objectifying standards most use, but... i thought she was lovely. i asked her out, and was denied, many times. since i didn't want to repeat how i asked her out, in case that was the problem, by the end of it i was asking her to go skiing... it was summer. i tried everything i could think of, but nothing was good enough.
...she is the only person i have ever felt like i could talk to and be understood. but over time the emotionally passive-aggressive yet brutal rebuttals scarred me horribly. i don't know how many occasions she said 'maybe another time' or 'um, sry i've got plans'.was i obsessed and clingy? yes- but it was real, and i never did anything stalkerish, and even helped her with a guy she liked (it hurt allot, but because she was happy; the pain gave me a sick joy, being happy that she was happy. very strange). for a while i wondered what more i could do- never figured it out. nor why a cheater was better than a lover. in all sincerity, i hope she is okay. the ironic situation this has created is because she hurt me so, the people who develop feelings for me, are crushing on someone i don't want to be... and the idea i don't want to be what i am, escapes most. (hope that makes you smile as much as it does me :)
i'm told it takes 7 years to stop caring about someone... only 2 years left for both of us neh? ;D
this post seems so familiar.
I met a boy when I was 13... I liked him, a lot. I was a freshman in high school and he was a junior.
he was so nice, and so sweet. and just as I started to have a thing for him... he got a girlfriend his age. and I knew I didn't have a chance. (until like a year and a half later when he told me that when he first met me, he had an interest in me... I thought that was fun.)
but we still talked. we became really close... he told me things he wouldn't tell anyone else and I relied on him for emotional support a lot, because I didn't have many friends and he didn't mind listening to me.
almost two years after meeting, he was going away to college, and he and his girlfriend were going to school on opposite ends of the same state. they were unstable even at home... they always fought, but he was too afraid not to be with her because he didn't think he would find anyone else. meanwhile, I was in a severely mediocre relationship with someone who really didn't care about my well-being... he didn't listen, he didn't care the way Cameron cared.
about halfway through their first year in college, Cameron and his girlfriend broke up. she begged him to take her back; when he wouldn't, she was so mean to him... she told him no one would ever love him as much as she did, among other much worse things. with a rough break up and difficult classes in engineering school, I was all Cameron had to fall back on... and I really, really cared about him. one night when he was feeling so down, so, so low about himself, to let him know I really did care I told him I loved him. because as a person, yes, I loved him very much and I wanted to take care of him and I wanted what was best for him...
probably two months later I broke up with my boyfriend, and started dating Cameron... we've been together ever since. it's been almost a year and a half. we survived our first year as long distance, and now we go to college 1/2 an hour apart, and I have a car so everything is running smoothly.
as for his ex, she transferred to his university in order to get him back, because she thought it was the distance that was ruining them. but by the time she'd accepted their acceptance offer, we had started dating... so now she thinks I "stole her boyfriend" even though he had no desire to be with her and... ugh whatever. it's been a huge drama-fest and it's absolutely hilarious.
Cameron and I are happy and that's all that really matters to me :) he is my everything. we tell each other everything; we share everything; we support each other in everything we do.
but yeah. I liked him from the age of 13, and had to watch him go through hell in a relationship for 2 and a half years before I got my chance. it always seems weird to me that we met almost 5 years ago.