Your blog sounds like something I could have written myself, as I am in the exact same place. Feels good, eh? :)

I think you appreciate those that love you a whole lot more after "recovering" from heavy parties, drugs, and meaningless relationships with other people. After seeing the light at the end of the tunnel everything is better and you often know exactly what you don't want in life and what you do. Kind of like that old song, "I can see clearly now, the rain is gone..." lol.

I'm married to my absolutely wonderful husband now and everything is amazing. Of course, we have a real relationship...so we still have our share of bumps, but he's my perfect match...my other half. Glad everything is working out for you too!

This post was very uplifting. I liked it (:

I started doing hardcore drugs and partying after I thought I'd found the perfect guy, but he broke my heart.

Now I've met someone else, and I'm beginning to get out of my dark place.

I'm all nice and clean and I don't have a "someone else"

Similar situation here...I didn't do drugs or party, but I was in a really bad depression, then my ex dumped me and threw me deeper into it because he admitted he was using me for physical attention and wasn't even the same person I thought I knew.

After a while I gathered up what was left of me and decided I'd had enough of guys using me, I'd had enough of the shitty feelings, and went out to have fun and meet other guys and more friends. In doing that, I met this amazing, amazing guy. We instantly clicked, he expected nothing from me but love and the same in return, and I still can't believe I found him.

Shit happens, and it sucks. But sometimes, some really, really good shit happens...and it's just awesome.

i pulled my shit together and felt better than ever...i found a great guy, but it didn't work out. a little bit later, the guy who contributed to my break down before i pulled my shit together came into the picture again. (he didn't abuse me or treat me wrong or anything, i had super strong
feelings for him and he just wasn't ready for me or a relationship)

we're living together and are planning on doing the whole marriage and kids thing when we're ready--a few years from now. he is the one of the best human beings i've met (though i may be bit biased haha) and i feel lucky that i not only get to even have in my life, but i also get to call him my boyfriend. he made me believe in God because i can't believe anyone could be this lucky without a little help from a higher power :)