It never really ends, does it? The desperate need to be near the person who plagues your mind day and night, never truly fades. Whether you're 14 or 45, "crushing" on someone never really changes, and you can't call it falling for someone, because when it comes to "crushing" you always seem to have this struggle between like and love. I thought it would all end after high school, but it just seems to have gotten worse. My mind and body want to mature, but my heart won't stand for it.
My heart keeps singing these hopelessly happy romantic tunes about a guy a couple years younger than me. I can't help thinking about him or wanting to see his face. I just want to be near him. I can't say "I love him." It's too far extended from the truth and I can't say "I like him." It's too shallow a reach from the truth. I can only truly say I want to be near him. I want to be with him. I feel addicted to his nature, but not obsessed by him. He can create beauty from any string of his guitar. His poetry causes my heart to race. His eyes make me nervous and embarrassed and a single touch of his hand makes me want to tell him anything and everything he wants to know. Although, I cant seem to tell him how I feel.
When will this hopelessly romantic heart realize that high school fantasies all must die eventually?
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You mean, we're all doomed to be single?
NEVER.
Haha, the feeling is good! :) It helps us know who we're attracted to.
Cuuuuuuuuute! :D
Dare2BDiferentt@xanga - haha i guess so according to the poster?!
I think it's fun to feel this way about someone. Sure there's potential for rejection, but what if it becomes more? Just having the feeling of liking someone, that your heart flutters and something as simple as breathing suddenly becomes a bit more difficult. Sometimes I miss that lol since it doesn't happen as often as it used to (my crush became my boyfriend over 4 years ago). There are still times when he gives me goosebumps, butterflies and makes me blush...it's a rush and I love it :) I know the feeling of obsession and addiction, we live an hour apart and are making plans to move in together soon so just thinking about having him with me everyday instead of once a week gets my adrenaline going :D
I'm kind of counting on it ending. for me, at any rate. Just because I'm under the impression that my crush and I aren't ever going to happen.
I have to say though, this is... awfully cute. =]
The whole butterflies thing makes relationships unboring.
I'm still in love with the guy from high school. I don't think mine will ever end.
i know exactly how you feel. seriously.its been a while for me..before high school actually. middle school :x. sounds crazy i know. i dont hold on and wait but i feel he is like perfect beyond all means. im keeping options open but i know if something ever were to happen, i would be the most happiest girl in the world.
haha my "crushing phase" ended when I was 18/19 five years ago... that's when i started going out with my current boyfriend. from then on, no more fantasies for me, just reality.
Crushes never end. Never ever ever.
It never really ended for me. I either really, really like this person or I just fall too easily. :S
Why do i have to know that feeling, its quite horrible... haha but im guessing it goes away when you meet the right guy, if there is such a thing. Good luck.
it never does. >.<
Never ends.
It never does lol Its a good feeling and a bad feeling all in one. I love the feeling of butterflies in your stomach when you get the text in the middle of the day or that special little smile, but at the same time when it takes a long time for something to come of it, it gets a little tiring lol
Rawr! I hate the feeling, but I like it at the same time. o3o
wtf? you just learn to proceed with caution. or do high schoolers never learn that? i'm sorry to invoke this extreme example, but if ever (god forbid) you were raped while attending a party, wouldn't you stop going to those types of parties and avoid interacting for the most part, with guys that you suspected were like your rapist? you learn after the first experience, because it'll burn your insides out until you're just sick.Â
When it comes to that feeling of liking someone SO much more than being able to just say "I like them" but you can't yet say that you love them...my favorite word is smitten. :)
Hm... I haven't had this feeling in a while and I'm enjoying the time off from it haha but I'll welcome it when it comes again
oh man..i totally hear u. i hv this feeling too n im in college.
i think its just nvr going to end...but i gotta ask, will it affect u from seeing another guy?
I'm 43, and they still happen. It's the loveliest misery I know of, the stupidest, most moronic slice of heaven/hell I know.
I never had high school fantasies. I had one grade school crush. The guy turned out to be a jerk so I'm weary of them. I've up-graded in my infatuations since then. Being more mature though, my infatuations always have boundaries hence they don't really turn into fantasies.
i hope they don't end! i'm looking forward to the day that i feel like that and it's NOT unrequited. hahah
never,reading this I realize i kind of never had this with my ex.