Every time something goes wrong, he's right there to pick me back up again and he doesn't even know it. I'm serious when I say he has the best timing in the world. It's crazy how every time I hit a rough patch or just have a really awful day, no matter how long I haven't spoken to him, he will be texting me by the end of the day. It happens at least 98% of the time. No joke.
For example, the first guy that I dated after him and I broke up was being a d-bag and cheated on me. My ex (let's call him B), didnt know anything about it, but as soon as that guy and I broke up, he texted me not two minutes later. Then we went out again. We broke up again and he started seeing another girl and so I started seeing another guy (the one my other blogs are about). Now, that it ended with me and him, B texted me again. Even moving to Southern California he said he "still sensed that something was wrong". That gave me and overwhelming feeling.
If something happens with my family or friends, he just knows. It's sort of the same way with me. I know when there is something wrong with him, no matter our distance. I have to admit, even though I said I love the other guy, no guy will know me as much as B does. No one will ever get me the way that he does. That scares me, because he is also the guy that hurt me the most. We just go on this unhealthy streak of hurting each other and being there for each other at the same time. Its a weird relationship, trust me, I've lived it for years.
It's scary to know that he's always going to be the one in the end. The one I turn to when I need help or the one I go to when I need to get things off of my mind, because with him, it's just easier. I know we can never be together again, but it's a good feeling to know that I have such a solid rock (besides Ari) in my life, no matter how effed up our relationship is.
Who is the rock in your life?
I'm glad my rock isn't my ex. Or else I'd be in your shoes and in that cycle of hurt and hope. Not a good combination when the one who knows you best is also the one who hurt you the most.
lol... My ex has really good timing too. Whenever I am over him and fully about to move on, he comes back into my life, whether through text, call, aim or xanga footprints. For more than a year, he has been in my life, coming and going... it is like he can sense when I am about to forget about him. so weird -.-
But all that doesn't answer your question... ummm, my rock is my writing. my family and friends (:
the rock in my life? wtf my life has LIFE IT AINT DEAD LIKE A FUCKIN ROCK JEEZ.
The rock in my life is probably my older brother. I've always looked up to him since I was young, he always took the blame for my stupid mistakes, always helped me with any problems, and pushed me to get out there. Sure, we have our stupid fights every now and then, but after he left for college last summer, I really realized his influence on my life and how important he is to me. I can talk to him about things I can't even talk to my own friends about, he's just a great person to look up to. He's there for me before I even call him. He knows when I have a problem or if something is bothering me, and will always try to help me find a solution.
I'm self-reliant.
I don't talk to my ex's... one we're on good terms. The other, not so much.
Honestly, I don't have a rock. When my parents split and there was no one to take care of my little sister, I took care of her. When crappy stuff happens, I have to clean up the mess. College was fun, but I really had to take care of myself and others during that whole time. No one was there to listen to my problems... thus I write in xanga hahaha
I don't really have an external rock at this point.
Perhaps my imaginary friend.. But that's still just me in the end, eh?
*shrug* I prefer it this way. =)
I don't have a rock. And I don't think I really need one either.
I try to rely on myself, but at the end of the day, it's my ex too. He's still my best friend and he understands me more than pretty much anyone, even though he can be a self-righteous bitch sometimes.
My rock? My ex..whom I currently live with...and fall asleep with every night....its a strange story behind it all, but I can understand where you're coming from. Sometimes you just need someone who knows you almost as well as you do to be there for you...:)
My rock is one of my closest friends. He always knows when something's wrong and will be there for me to listen even if what I say brings back painful memories for him. And he'll always work his hardest to help me find a solution to my problem. :]
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myself
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Is it sad that I don't have a rock? Haha I can only rely on myself, I can't rely on other people to really help me or make me feel better.
My rock would probably be my imagination.
I had someone like that. He ended up disappointing me in the end. Now I know to only rely on myself.
@sweeetstache@xanga - very well said
My rock, is also my ex. He's the first one I go to when something's wrong, and he's the only person who makes me feel better. But I think that it's okay, because I'm fine with the situation. We flirt sometimes, but it's always gunna be him, I accept that. I loved him, so hey.
At least your ex enters back in your life at the right time. I have the opposite effect with my ex; he always seems to creep back into my life whenever I feel like I'm on top of the world. It's like he has this sixth sense that goes off whenever I feel happy and promptly ruins my mood by trying to talk to me again. Ugh.
I'm that guy to my ex from high school.. we dated on and off for 8 years and continued to have sex on occasion when I went to college... I used to wake up at night and get the weirdest vibe so I'd call or txt her out of the blue and she'd be crying or on her way from from a fight she had with her new man or just having a horrible week... shit was bizarre.
But after a while of noticing that I was that person to her but she was never that person to me I started to ignore the feelings. Or better yet, not ignore, but not act upon them. Its better that she deals with that shit on her own rather than think I'll ALWAYS be there.
She's still my heart and always will be, but sometimes you just gotta wise the fuck up and realize that if you two arent FRIENDS friends, you're still in-love with this person and that person is an enabler by using you as that pillow to cry on/scream into and put you back in the closet once you've served your purpose.
The rock in my life passed away not too long ago, although he wasn't a love interest. It's not as hard as I thought it would be, though, to be my own rock. I still miss him, though.
It sounds like you and your ex have a very strong bond together. A lot of people I've talked to have a hard time understanding a concept of two people having such a strong bond like the one you described, but yet are not mate-compatible.
However, my great-aunt was like this with her husband. They meant so much to each other, but they just couldn't be married to each other. As soon as they were divorced, they were great friends again and they stayed that way until he died. And no, he isn't the man I was talking about in my first sentence. :p
Sometimes, it's just that way. But, I do know what you mean. It is nice to know that you've always got someone.
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So cute :)
I don't have a rock, but my current boyfriend knew me very well already from the moment we first met. It's as if we were already couples in our "past lives"! Too bad he's not always there when I need it... :(
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I'm glad my rock isn't my ex. Or else I'd be in your shoes and in that cycle of hurt and hope. Not a good combination when the one who knows you best is also the one who hurt you the most.
My rock is my oldest brother. I would go on, but I'd go on forever. He's who I look up to the most, and respect the most, and want to please the most. That and more, plain and simple.
Good luck with this strange relationship. Maybe sometime in the future, you two will be better for each other and actually carry on a continuous and successful relationship. It sounds like that wouldn't be a shock to either you or 'B'
Take care
lol... My ex has really good timing too. Whenever I am over him and fully about to move on, he comes back into my life, whether through text, call, aim or xanga footprints. For more than a year, he has been in my life, coming and going... it is like he can sense when I am about to forget about him. so weird -.-
But all that doesn't answer your question... ummm, my rock is my writing. my family and friends (:
the rock in my life? wtf my life has LIFE IT AINT DEAD LIKE A FUCKIN ROCK JEEZ.
The rock in my life is probably my older brother. I've always looked up to him since I was young, he always took the blame for my stupid mistakes, always helped me with any problems, and pushed me to get out there. Sure, we have our stupid fights every now and then, but after he left for college last summer, I really realized his influence on my life and how important he is to me. I can talk to him about things I can't even talk to my own friends about, he's just a great person to look up to. He's there for me before I even call him. He knows when I have a problem or if something is bothering me, and will always try to help me find a solution.
I'm self-reliant.
I don't talk to my ex's... one we're on good terms. The other, not so much.
Honestly, I don't have a rock. When my parents split and there was no one to take care of my little sister, I took care of her. When crappy stuff happens, I have to clean up the mess. College was fun, but I really had to take care of myself and others during that whole time. No one was there to listen to my problems... thus I write in xanga hahaha
I don't really have an external rock at this point.
Perhaps my imaginary friend.. But that's still just me in the end, eh?
*shrug* I prefer it this way. =)
I don't have a rock. And I don't think I really need one either.
I try to rely on myself, but at the end of the day, it's my ex too. He's still my best friend and he understands me more than pretty much anyone, even though he can be a self-righteous bitch sometimes.
My rock? My ex..whom I currently live with...and fall asleep with every night....its a strange story behind it all, but I can understand where you're coming from. Sometimes you just need someone who knows you almost as well as you do to be there for you...:)
My rock is one of my closest friends. He always knows when something's wrong and will be there for me to listen even if what I say brings back painful memories for him. And he'll always work his hardest to help me find a solution to my problem. :]
my boyfriend
and my brother :)
x
me
myself
and xanga.. Jk. My girls
Is it sad that I don't have a rock? Haha I can only rely on myself, I can't rely on other people to really help me or make me feel better.
My rock would probably be my imagination.
I had someone like that. He ended up disappointing me in the end. Now I know to only rely on myself.
@sweeetstache@xanga - very well said
My rock, is also my ex. He's the first one I go to when something's wrong, and he's the only person who makes me feel better. But I think that it's okay, because I'm fine with the situation. We flirt sometimes, but it's always gunna be him, I accept that. I loved him, so hey.
At least your ex enters back in your life at the right time. I have the opposite effect with my ex; he always seems to creep back into my life whenever I feel like I'm on top of the world. It's like he has this sixth sense that goes off whenever I feel happy and promptly ruins my mood by trying to talk to me again. Ugh.
I'm that guy to my ex from high school.. we dated on and off for 8 years and continued to have sex on occasion when I went to college... I used to wake up at night and get the weirdest vibe so I'd call or txt her out of the blue and she'd be crying or on her way from from a fight she had with her new man or just having a horrible week... shit was bizarre.
But after a while of noticing that I was that person to her but she was never that person to me I started to ignore the feelings. Or better yet, not ignore, but not act upon them. Its better that she deals with that shit on her own rather than think I'll ALWAYS be there.
She's still my heart and always will be, but sometimes you just gotta wise the fuck up and realize that if you two arent FRIENDS friends, you're still in-love with this person and that person is an enabler by using you as that pillow to cry on/scream into and put you back in the closet once you've served your purpose.
The rock in my life passed away not too long ago, although he wasn't a love interest. It's not as hard as I thought it would be, though, to be my own rock. I still miss him, though.
It sounds like you and your ex have a very strong bond together. A lot of people I've talked to have a hard time understanding a concept of two people having such a strong bond like the one you described, but yet are not mate-compatible.
However, my great-aunt was like this with her husband. They meant so much to each other, but they just couldn't be married to each other. As soon as they were divorced, they were great friends again and they stayed that way until he died. And no, he isn't the man I was talking about in my first sentence. :p
Sometimes, it's just that way. But, I do know what you mean. It is nice to know that you've always got someone.
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So cute :)
I don't have a rock, but my current boyfriend knew me very well already from the moment we first met. It's as if we were already couples in our "past lives"! Too bad he's not always there when I need it... :(