*clears throat*
Hello, my name is Elizabeth, and I'm commitment phobic.
no seriously though,
We see our friends and families struggling and hurting at the hands of the ones that have the closest claim to them. The ones that are supposed to be guarding their hearts instead of using their proximity to cut the deepest.
And lets face it, that's what happens.
This problem is long lines of bitter relationships and humans being humans and us being such COWARDS that we can't stand up for ourselves, the ones we love, and everything else we claim to believe in.
Be honest- what do you believe in?
That the government can save the world, one tax policy at a time (no please don't comment on that i was just being sarcastic)? Animal rights? Saving the environment?
But isn't love something worth believing in??
Isn't it THE something worth believing in??
Sometimes I feel like even though every single person you asked would answer with a firm 'yes!' their lives would scream 'noooooo' as they dove for cover.
I'm scared to death. I'm a coward unmatched on this sorry planet of ours.
I'm afraid of making myself vulnerable to someone.
I'm terrified of giving my life,
my hopes,
and my dreams into the hands of someone else.
I'm...
phobic.
I have this thing with trust. It scares the living daylights out of me. I literally can't do a trust-fall. What if they drop me? I mean...
they're.
only.
human.
But I'm human too.
I guess I'm more afraid of ending up like the rest of them.
I'm afraid of losing faith.
I know so many people that have split or even 'live'(more like 'endure') until a ripe old age upset with their spouse, their friends, and themselves for letting them make the biggest mistake of their lives.
But maybe it wasn't a mistake?
What if they were truly in love back then?
The problem is not that they don't/didn't love each other. The problem is that they let go.
I live in the hope that you're just as scared as I.
I live in the hope that you won't let go.
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@ellicepark@xanga - Hmm.