We all have plans. We tell our friends, "I'm going to do this and I'm going to be that." Have you ever been that person? We all hate that person. That one guy/girl that makes you feel like shit despite the fact that you know they're just as lost as you are. The only difference between you and them is that they're deluding themselves into thinking that they're actually going somewhere, but its that delusion that makes them already one step ahead of you.
If you're like me, you can't help but wonder about yourself after you encounter those people. For me, I wonder if I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing in life. If I'm not just wasting my time.
I sure as hell know that I've been wasting my time for a while now, though. I know my strengths, but most of all I know my weaknesses too. Despite that, I still find myself standing still at the same place, waiting for the light to turn green.
I know what I can do, but I never do it. Somewhere along the line I lost sight of what I wanted be, and lost myself in everything everyone says I should be. In everything everyone wants to be.
In the end, whatever you choose to do with your life is exactly up to you. It's the only real thing that you have control over in life.
People will always leave you. Even the people you thought would never ever leave your side, sometimes, they do. It's heartbreaking and it sure as hell hurts to know that they don't need you anymore, but the only thing you can really do is find out were you're supposed to go after they're gone.
Maybe this light was their stop. The only thing you can do is remember the experiences their company gave you along the ride. The only thing you can really do is watch them go their separate way in your rearview mirror when your light turns green.
You might not even know where to go, but like that song says, you don't gotta go home, but you can't stay here.
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I feel like I've pushed a lot of way for having that very attitude. I like to think about the future, where I'm going, why I'm where I am. I like(d) to talk about it. Unfortunately, I found that doing that loses friends, and it always confused me as to why. Because I'm motivated? Because I know what I enjoy doing? I was raised in a rural Georgia town with a terrible public school system, and I'm dead set on escaping mediocrity. I intend to accomplish something useful in life, not just manage a fast-food restaurant.
Imagining is the first step to doing. First you visualize yourself doing it, find out if it's plausible, decide if the sacrifices are worth it, then go for it. It's really not that difficult; the hardest part is getting started.
Also, people move in and out of your life constantly. The only person you can really rely on is yourself.
I have something to say about this and yet I feel as if there isn't a need to write it here. Have a nice day.
This upsets me very much. I felt like it hits home, but instead, I was the one who decided to think that "it's my stop" but now all I can think is, what if it's not after all? I'm having a hard time looking in my rearview mirror and accepting what was left behind. I want to be able to pull a u-ie and just go back to where things were. Back to where I was happy. But I don't know when that period of happiness happened.
Everything ends eventually.
This is really insightful. I've had plenty of friendships dissolve simply with time and because our paths just happened to be different. There's no bad blood between us or anything, it was just time to move on.
I liked this a lot.
But yeah, it's hard.
Good post. Sometimes people leave.... but at the same time... more people come in :)
Gah. I am really living this right now. And I can just say that yeah it hurts for now, but what's helping me get through it all is that I remind myself that this is only a moment in time. Life moves on and we can't sit around and let life pass us by. For me, I can't focus on the rearview mirror watching my ex turn another way because life is too short for me to sit around and watch what's happened behind. The future is often moving so quickly towards us that a glance back takes our focus away from our present lives moving forward.
they say that when a door closes a new one opens. it's part of life. things will exit while others will enter.
It's the only thing you can really do.
You used that sentence a lot. It bothered the hell out of me. I couldn't even focus on the post.
great post
beautiful <3
I sure do miss her ya....
But yeah I almost fully agree. This kind of reminds me of a lot of people though. They say they want to help people but they can't because they can't help themselves. Yet I see them making things happen everyday. How do we get to that state of mind? it's like we're not satisfied. I guess we never are. Because I can help this one person feel better but I just can't make myself feel better. Now she's gone :(...
But anyways this reminds me of The Fray song "look after you" and the one line "So few come and don't go". And I really wanted to stay but it was best to leave.
Most people try to find meaning in life. But the Nihilistic approach is there is no meaning in life which I can almost agree to. The meanings in life are really what our own mind puts into it. Maybe it means something everyday to know she's okay without me.
Dammit, this is making me depressed LOL.
very true =(
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its sad how much i relate to this. its all unexpected and its always the person you least suspect to end up leaving.
and this makes me depressed
just saying
:(
this blog is the first blog i actually commented on in awhile, but it really hit me and i can relate! Thanks for writing this