Tuesday, 16 June 2009
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I'm Waiting for Him to Come Home
Ten months. That's how long I asked him to wait. In ten months, it will all be official.I hated how school just started. It felt as though I only had two days of summer vacation instead of two months of it. It wasn't enough for me. Classes started in our school first, so we still get to text each other while I'm in class. And then, just yesterday, he was sent off to the seminary for school, too. It felt like hell to me as soon as he ended our call, our call before he went to school. And now, I don't know when we'll get to see each other again. We made lots of plans like going to the movies and watching the second installment of the Transformers as soon as the seminary let them go home. But of course, I'm still anxious as to when that'll be happening. He promised that as soon as he's home for the weekend, he'll text me. Little does he know, as soon as one in the afternoon that day hit, the time when he'll be going to school, I burst into sobs.
Time has gone so fast for me, those precious past two months that I've devoted to that college entrance test review center. We were just friends at first but the day after we got into our fight, he confessed that he learned to love me, in the brief time that he met me and we became friends. At first, I didn't want to accept it; I even got mad at him for ruining our friendship so both he and I insisted that we pretend he never said those words. But when we met up that afternoon at the local mall after we missed our teacher and we didn't get a chance to file our papers, in that brief two hours, I didn't want to be away from him. I then realized that I loved him, too.
I wasn't allowed yet to have a boyfriend so I promised him that after ten months, he could court me and then we'd be an official couple. I didn't know that first love could be this potent. I learned to cherish every sweet text message from and I saved all of them in my phone. And then I realized, I wanted to be with him forever. Being without him became one of my fears, a concern that I confessed to him. He told me not to be afraid, he said he won't hurt me and he won't look for another, he only wanted one and that was me.
And so, I'm waiting for him to come home to me, and for these coming ten months to pass like an unexpected breeze, so fast that you barely felt it, just so I can be with him and for him to be mine, and I his.
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just keep in mind that hardly anything goes as planned.
"Hope for the best and prepare for the worst."
-Source Unknown
I hope everything works out for you. :)
brace yourself. good luck. but really, do keep an open mind?
well... good luck with that.
10 months is long :(
My friend started dating a guy, but he had to go to America (she's in Japan) for college... so that's a whole year that they don't see each other. She told me it stinks big time.
As long as you're both for it, you can do it!
You can do it :) I'm waiting for 6 years for my bf to finish his military obligations (2 years of training, 4 years of work, then after that, who knows?) Occupy yourself somehow, and make your best effort and keeping in touch with him...it's really hard in the beginning, but it gets easier with time. Good luck :)
gives time to focus on your school work more... should be worth it no matter if he comes back or not/.
Good luck !
Hope those ten months pass by fast :)
Good luck and if its meant to be it can work out. But prepare yourself for the worst, expect potential fights: i won't lie, its very, very hard. But if you can face that head on and still, both of you guys can hold on in spite of it all, then its meant to be. This will be predictive of hardships to come.
Good luck with waiting. In the meantime FOCUS ON YOUR SCHOOLWORK!! Make sure you're focusing on yourself and making yourself happy. Being in love is an awesome feeling, a feeling that can be destroyed if all of your happiness depends on that one person. Remember, you have to love yourself completely before you can really be in love with another.
good luck!
Awwww. Best wishes. You can do it if you both really want to! No doubt. What seminary has he gone off to?
<3, ~*Akarui Mitsukai*~
Good luck! I know it's difficult but it's not impossible. Everything will find a way to work itself out as long as it's both what you two really want to happen. August will be 7 months since I've seen my boyfriend so I know what you mean! Just keep yourself busy. =]
:( My boyfriend won't be back for two months, and I think that's long!
Good luck!
My boyfriend went abroad for 9 months and he came back into my arms. It takes a lot of trust, communication and devotion.
dont mean to be mean but 'forever' is a big big word to use
judging from your words, you appear to be still very young.
im not saying ppl who date each other at a young age dont last,
its jsut very difficult.
time occurs, people change, thoughts change.
just dont throw everything into the relationship.
i do wish you guys best of luck!
good luck !
@partial_wing@xanga - That's kind of shitty advice to give. When you're in a relationship with someone you love (no matter how young or old you are at the time) you should absolutely throw everything into the relationship. A relationship can't be a good, healthy relationship if someone is holding back.
But you are correct to caution her, I think. Young love is difficult. I met my husband at nineteen, he was seventeen. Between then and now, we have changed so much that I don't even really know him anymore and I became someone he didn't like very much. We're getting a divorce.
Whoever posted this: it's important to remember that whether your boyfriend is here or there, relationships are hard work. There has to be an open line of communication, realistic expectations of the other person, and an acceptance of change. You have to know that you're going to change and your boyfriend is going to change. You have to be open to those changes and ready to accept the other person as they are and as they will be.
Good luck.
trust yourself that you can do it..
good luck!
I'm very sorry to have to be the hard-assed jerk-off who breaks a bubble. It is very touching that you and your friend are about to be in a relationship and it sounds like its going to be a strong one.
BUT, as I speak this one from personal experience and by watching other people saying things way more sentimental than you, if not saying the exact same things you are now, this shit probably won't last nowhere near as long as you think it will. Relationship high has set into your mind, and you seriously need to detox before the first serious fight you two have.
You're still young. This shit may or may not last. Do I hope for you that your relationship will be a strong one over 50 years? Sure, more power to you if you can manage it. Will it actually happen? Probably not. You do sound like you do love him, but part of it sounds like you really can't be without him in a sense of a needy person. Give or take an actual year or two in your relationship (if not shortly thereafter), you two are going to fight and realize that "this is a lot harder than I thought." That doesn't imply that your relationship is doomed to failure, but it does imply that you're only seeing the fun of a relationship, not the work that will go into it.
If you can work together with him (not by submission, but by actual sacrifice and compensation) through the good and bad times, you can have a healthy relationship. Despite the negativity of what I said, good luck to you!
@MuggleLouise@xanga - some people throw literally EVERYTHING in. as in they end up losing themselves and becoming extremely hurt. what i mean is just be sure you're able to pick up the pieces if anything happens.
and dont throw away other important things in life say school, family, work etc.
because honestly a guy is just a guy. i mean finding "the one" is great, and it would be such a blessing if he was your "forever the one". but forever is so so far.
just be strong throughout the process thats all.
cheers
i am in a same exact situation, i met my boyfirend through a friend over the summer, he was born in venezuela, and hes in his senior year of high school, we started dating and he went back not long after our 1 month, we are having a long distance relationship until he comes back for college after this school year. i, too have to wait for 10 months, 3 months had already passed by, we've had arguments, we've had problems, we doubted whether it will work out, but we both know that, if we believe in each other, it will work out. the 3 months that passed by wasnt as bad as i thought. 7 more months and i will be seeing him agian.
im not sure, but i think maybe you are actually luckier than me, you actually get to text him, because me and my boyfriend are in two differnet country, we only call each other occasionally, we use Instant messaging most of the time, but because hes always busy with his SAT and APs (hes studying his ass off so he can come back to NY and stay in the city with me) we only talk on weekends, and it still works out, 10 months isnt that long, we are luckier than those who have to wait for years. just keep yourself busy during this time.
first of all i wish u good luck because i am about to venture into this same situation. Granted i will only be away for 5months for study abroad my bf and i try not to think of our relationship as being really long-distance because it is only temporary. This situation really calls for mind over matter but it is very important for u both to be on the same page and remain on it.
AND wow reading some of these comments geez. From what i have observed this conversation has given birth to two types of voices: the postive and the negative. From my experience you do need to consider both viewpoints but take every lump of sugar with a grain of salt and throw all the salt offered to you over your shoulder.
The people who say nice things give you hope in which u should have going into this thing. Starting off with doubts and insecurity will only lead to more doubt and insecurity.
People who have been hurt in relationships have loads of advice steaming from their experiences/ observing others. BUT lots of times when they haven't moved on or are not in a relationship at the moment their advice can be very, well, negative. In this case, I recommend taking their words as precautionary advice but not reading to much into them because the only pep who are involved, can make it work, who control the future are you and your bf.
Realism grounds us while hope gives us the strength to adventure out and move on.