And it was in that time, that I came to him brokenhearted with expectations for him to fix it. It never occurred to me that he couldn't fix my heart. It never occurred to me that he no longer wanted any part of my heart. I just assumed he would as he has so many other times. Looking back, I realize it was ridiculous to think that. So I'll tell him a story and let him make what he makes of it.Dear Ex,
Years ago, I felt myself in love with you. I thought, "Surely this must be love. He makes me laugh and feel good inside. His very voice gives me tingles and makes me tremble. I just have to tell him because I can't be the only one who feels this way." And when I finally told you that I loved you, you wouldn't repeat it back to me. "I've been hurt too many times," you said. So I let it go because I believed that you weren't ready but when you felt it, really felt it, you would say it as well. Some time passed and sure enough, you said those three precious words. "I love you." And my heart soared; I felt as if I was a on a cloud, untouchable.
We went on in happiness, I thought, for almost six months. Though we rarely saw each other, we talked every single day for hours on end. I assumed it was enough and I assumed you were happy with the relationship, but as so often before, I assumed too much.
And all too soon, our relationship came to a close in which hurt was done to both sides. I feel as though I must apologize for I truly believed I loved you but you hurt me, you see. I trusted you and for once, in a long time, I was happy and carefree but in the blink of an eye, it was gone and it seemed to me that you were to blame. I was starting to love myself, flaws and all, and I think you had something to do with that.
At first, I was confused as to if I really wanted to leave you behind and move on. After a while, I just stopped thinking about it though I never actually answered the question. Two years; that's what I gave Bella's dad and that's time I used to try and forget you. You didn't let it happen though and for that, in a way, I thank you. That boy took a lot from me but you gave it back. And whenever he dropped me, you picked me up and brushed me off - good as new. Sometimes, I sit and wonder where I would have been had it not been for you. How low would I have fallen? Would I still be with that boy? What kind of shape would I be in? Alone, abused, and bruised? Two years that no one knows much of or has need to know but still, moments I hold dear.
And so I write this "letter" to thank you. Know you have my appreciation and my love. At this moment, you don't have need of it but as you were there for me, I shall be here for you. I hope you never forget me and that you still hold me close to heart. As you have said many times, no one knows where life will lead us. I hope we meet again and when that day comes, I hope we can be the best of friends. Put aside our differences and get along, after all, you are my first true love.
With all my love,
Your Ex.
Comments (30)
Awgh. That's really cute.
Very well written. I wish I could write something like this to my current ex.
Good approach... but sorry to hear
Aww that's sweet.
I wouldn't describe it as cute or sweet. to each their own though.
I find it to be very heartwrenching
That was very sweet. :)
Dear amazing writer,
You seem like a good person that deserves good things.
Sincerely,
Maggie
Cute* Very thoughtful.
awww.
i wish i could say stuff like that to my ex. but really, i just hate him with everything i have.
if some things are left undone, then maybe it too, should be left unsaid. it doesn't benefit you nor would it benefit him. Accept it. and move on.
this is very touching *sobs*
i'm not sure what to say about this?
@EmergencySurveys@xanga - Lmao. Why do you hate him?
@smile4leena@xanga - Which is why I wrote this out without a name. He doesn't know about it and he may never.
aww :)
I wrote something like that an appreciation letter, never gave it to him, but he read it
He told me to stop living in the past* and move on -.-"
It wasnt meant to be read* it was just my way of expressing my feelings
@HaMioAmore@xanga - he's just. ughsdfuklghsdg he pushed me farther in my depression. i thought i was happy with him. no one else did tho. everyone knew how miserable i was. until i spent one night with someone else, it changed my whole outlook.
& when i broke up with him he made me feel like complete shit & then expected me to take him back.
he threw my car key in the ocean, destroyed my wifebeater, "lost" my movies, & he won't give me the rest of my stuff back. he has my sister's playstation cords, my shirt i got from a friend for christmas (that i loveddd.), & he kept some of my underwear. i just.. i dunno. i regret everything about him. =/
^ that didn't show much hate towards him, but if you were in my head you'd understand. haha.
@phuck_diz_shiz@xanga - Can i read it?
this is sweet, makes me think back about my first love.
Omfg!!! I would totally kick his ass if i saw him! >=[
@HaMioAmore@xanga - http://phuck-diz-shiz.xanga.com/681537119/call-me-an-emo-all-you-want/
This is the most recent one I can find not exactly* a letter
Awww... :)
Very touching. :)
aww ugh phew...undergoing my own breakup, im sad but this is good, thanks
very strong. i wrote a few letters to my ex during/after our break up. and ended up giving him just one (which must've worked magic, after reading it he ended up NOT asking out his new girl officially).
three months later we're back together. :)