Thursday, 09 April 2009
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The What If Guy And How My Life'd Be Different
Apparently, my What If guy just realized I had a son. Random. I guess he never noticed the pictures I posted on Facebook before. I'm guessing with the new Facebook, he saw my status about Eli sleeping and it finally clicked with him.This guy is truly my "What If" guy.
Of course, I have the ones who I wonder what things would have been like if we hadn't broken up...But this guy; well, it is truly: What if I had gotten on that plane? How would my life be different now?
Charlie. That is his name. We "met" during a rocky patch between my wish-he-would-be-my-ex-already husband (that's another long post for another day) while we were dating and into our early engagement. We clicked immediately and spent hours talking on the phone.
The catch? He lived in Montana. Then J. and I broke off our engagement for a bit. I had a plane ticket and everything for a weekend in Montana. I just never got on the plane. I can't really explain why. I was head over heels for this guy and he was for me.
Perhaps I felt guilty about J. I don't know. Whatever the reason, I didn't get on that plane. I will never know what would have happened if I had taken that flight. How would my life have changed?
Now some might say, he was in Montana, so it probably wouldn't have gone anywhere. However, he was willing to move to Georgia once he got out of the National Guard. He had even told his parents that he was thinking about moving.
But I never got on that plane. We never spent our weekend together. I stayed with J. and cut ties with Charlie for a while. Our connection kept us in touch off and on. We never completely dropped out of each other's lives.
I will never regret any decision I made, because I have my beautiful baby boy, and I wouldn't trade that for the world but I do still have that "What If" out there and I do think I'll always care about Charlie.
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- About Me: I am a lover and a fighter. I am random and I love being a smart ass (its one trait I took from my father). I am the type of person that busts out laughing about something funny that happened days ago. I am the type to love hard and fight for what I believe in. Both don't always go the way I planned but its my life and I can roll with the punches. Most of all, I am mommy to a beautiful baby boy, Eli, and I wouldn't change that for the world. He is the light of my life. He amazes me every day. I have the most amazing family & friends and I don't know how I would have gotten to where I am today without them! Love you all!
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Comments (11)
Lol that's awesome.
I would have gone to Montana...wooo Montana
Just about everything in our life that requires a decision ends up with a what if. If there weren't two choices, at least, then there would be no decision needing to be made.
So, we've all got our what ifs. It's certainly interesting to think about.
I just wrote a post about my 'what if' guy. Coincidence.
woulda, coulda, shoulda...it would make me nutz if i thought about it too much...wait, i do lol :)
As long as you're happy in life, dear.
Everyone has those What if moments.
I have them all the time, but I know if I didn't make the choices I did make, I wouldn't be who I am today =]
My "what if" guy is in the Army. He's stationed in NY...originally from Savannah, Ga. He was willing to move to Atlanta to be closer to me after he gets out of the Army. Yea...not happening anymore.
In all reality...people make promises they can't keep.
I dated a millionaire and he wanted to get married, but I didn't think he was "the one" so I broke it off.
Sometimes when I don't have money to buy food or whatever I wonder what life would have been like if I had stayed with him.
I have a what if guy too. But it's only until now that I've actually started talking to him again, that I realize it was all for the better. I can't see myself with him now because I'm too happy with the guy I'm with today.
I never had a what-if guy. The only guy I ever dated & I took a risk by dating each other. So many things could have stopped us: family, friends, and other shit, but it didn't. We dated for about two years, and just recently split, thus the ex. But I'm happy that we took the risk, because I probably would have NEVER been that happy for those two years. Sure, I get really sad sometimes because of how things turned out, but things just don't change. He's on the west coast & I on the east. I don't regret that I ever dated him, he opened my eyes to the world around me & let me breathe.