Thursday, 12 March 2009

• My Favorite Depressing Love Song

  I love Leona Lewis!

  It all began in high school. Dave was my best guy friend. He understood me as much as I understood him. We lived in different towns but saw each other every summer, a couple times a month, and talked on instant messenger constantly. During our freshman year of college (we went to separate schools about 5 hours apart), we made a pact that if we were both single by the time we were 40, we were just going to marry each other. By the end of our sophomore year, we dropped the age from 40 to 25. Around that time, Dave started dating a girl, and I was surprised by how crushed I felt. It was then that I realized I had bottled up feelings for him. I didn't want to say anything in fear of ruining an amazing friendship, so I pretended to be happy for him for the next nine months.
  

  One day on messenger, things took a turn and he confessed to having feelings for me for years.... but he still had a girlfriend. At that point, things between us changed, and I guess you could say we entered an emotional affair. He kept promising me that he would break up with his girlfriend, but five months later, he was still with her, but talking to me hours on end on the phone. I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't be that girl. I couldn't wait for him. It hurt too much.
  

  I slowly pulled away from him, and during that time, I met my current boyfriend. When we began dating, and Dave found out, he confronted me about it. I told Dave how it hurt too much to wait for him, and Dave told me he loved me and knew I was the woman he was supposed to spend the rest of his life with. My heart shattered. If he was so sure, why wouldn't he break up with his girlfriend? I apologized for hurting him, but I'm better off now. I'm happy as can be with my current boyfriend.
  

  Six months later, Dave is single and calls me constantly. It hurts to know he still has feelings for me knowing what we could've had. But I'm not about to ruin what I have with my boyfriend, who went after me when he knew he liked me, for a guy who "loved me" but yet wouldn't break up with a girl he didn't love. I tear up everytime I hear this song.

  If you have a favorite depressing love song you want to send our way, submit it and we'll put it up before our next Musical Monday! (hint: start looking for "this song so hot I might blow a gasket" music)
  

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